peoplesuck

I have chronic anxiety and I have over the years become quite shut off to others. I find going on nights out very stressful. I get excited, look forward to it, then a couple days before it i hate it I don't want to go, I want to cancel. I feel uncomfortable in all my clothes I dont want to drink or be drunk, but don't want to seem unsociable for drinking juice. I'm nervous around new people, I don't know how to talk to the opposite sex, I've had bad or awkward experiences with them thinking me being friendly and commenting on tattoos was a "come on" so I shut down and don't speak. Anyway, my point is, apart from work 3 times a week and taking my child to activity classes, I never saw anyone or went anywhere without my immediate family. So being in lockdown hasn't changed things a huge amount. However, my anxiety has ramped up a few notches but it's all because of other people. I'm terrified to let my child out onto the path to play, by himself, in case a passer by has a go at him. I am worried that when I go to the shops and pick up new eyeliner (yes to wear in the house to give me a boost) someone will see and have a go, or judge me. Or when I picked up a new set of cups with Bees on it today, I had a lovely chat with the store assistant who loves the Bee cups and we agreed it makes us feel nice, so why not? I'll tell you why not. People are all too quick to shame one another. I've noticed a lot on social media. "I bet you can't repost this if you didn't stayed inside all day" or "let's all clap at 8pm tonight for all the wa£&%+rs that didn't stay home". People shaming others because they saw them go out in their car 4 times in one day. No one knows what other people are doing. Again I digress. I'm so afraid of other people judging and deciding that they don't like the look of me out with my family at the river as part of our walk, so they will phone the police, or they will challenge us. I'm less afraid of the virus and more scared of people. #COVID19 #Anxiety #scared #peoplesuck

So I’m working at a summer camp for people with disabilities, and I adore my campers but my coworkers are vipers. They keep spreading rumors that I’m faking my health stuff and I have fainted at work now twice. All they do is talk about everyone behind there backs. And it makes me angry that I’ve been apologizing for my health when it isn’t something I can control. You would think people working with special needs would be more compassionate but they are honestly the worst people I have ever worked with

#CheckInWithMe Sure, I’ll check in with you. I’m at home with husband away at work.

Things I’m dealing with right now/today:
While walking our dogs, my husband, for the umpteenth time, has let our scavenger terrier scarf some mystery shit off the sidewalk. Then I’m stuck with her vomiting at home, having to monitor her. Smh 🤦🏼‍♀️

Having to prepare and wait to have a pre-approval phone interview tomorrow with the director of a tech program. This is for a major career change.

Just witnessed some trashy, asshole neighbor chuck their garbage into our property (we rent). Cigarette butts everywhere, all over our property (deepest, darkest part of me wishes all smokers would just drop dead as my ultimate Xmas gift).
Doing some day drinking and feeling intensely angry and anxious due to political atmosphere as well (impeach the whole dam administration already - enough is fcking enough).
So yeah, there’s that. #peoplesuck #fuckpeople #impeach #booze #Anxiety #anger #tired #idiocracy