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I freaking HATE them, especially if you’re in a non-monogamous non-romantic relationship (but NOT FRIENDS). They are meant to be love-exclusive, heteronormative, and monogamy-exclusive as much as they possibly can and it makes me sick and drives me crazy to the point where I almost broke my computer screen this morning because of seeing another stupid advertisement (no worries, it’s fine)! I hate the alternative title “Single awareness day” because it further proves the belief that Valentines is “oh so romantic” and plus while many single individuals don’t really care, some are making themselves and others feel bad because of the standard belief of “being in a relationship” when they are valid with OR without a partner(s).

Valentine’s Day does NOT have to be a romantic holiday. Plus, not every experiences love, whether that be romantic, platonic, familial, or whatever. Valentine’s Day doesn’t have to be for everyone because it isn’t even FOR everyone, so society needs to STOP PUSHING IT DOWN OUR THROATS AND LEAVE US THE FRICK ALONE!

#Anxiety #anger #ValentinesDay #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #SocialAnxiety #valentine #Love #DearSociety #Stress #Polyamory #Vent #StopThis #Exclusionism #amatonormativity #LGBTQ

Depression has been full strength these last couple of days. I am not really looking for advice or a solution. I just need to vent.

I have been really busy this last month. I moved into my own apartment after living in a shared house with 6 other roommates. My back and sciatica have been a real problem. Work has been a challenge as well. I have only been at this job for a few months and I am starting to dred it.

I work for a local humane society in the donations dept. My job is to find the more valuable items and list them on eBay. When they sell, we pack them up and ship them. I have been making some errors with cost of shipping and items being damaged in shipping that cost us money and it is really bothering me. I get angry at myself for making these errors and I feel like I can't do the job properly. I've been having problems for several years with focus and retention which affects my everyday life.

What's really bothering me is that I feel like these problems are getting worse and I am worried about my future. I started feeling like I can't function normally and that turns my depression from mild to severe. I started having the suicidal thoughts again. My manager contributes to the depression because he constantly makes sarcastic comments that fuel my depression and anxiety. I didn't buy the right car and it's going to break down on me. My new phone is crap because the 1st day I had it I had problems with texts because a setting was wrong. And on and on. Why this is a real problem for me is because my father was overly critical of me growing up and I felt worthless. My boss is doing the same thing and I am reliving my childhood again.

I am just having a hard time dealing with this right now. My MO is to give in to the depression and get fed up with the job and quit. That doesn't solve the underlying problem that the depression is causing. I have a horrible track record with jobs. I average 3-6 months at a job because depression and anxiety cause me to quit. I have no stability or retirement benefits and retirement is fast approaching. When I reflect on these things I start to think why continue. I am not happy. I don't enjoy the things I used to. I've done pretty much everything in life I really wanted to do and I think about suicide. Right now they are just thoughts and I will work through them like I always do. I am just tired of these repeating patterns. I just want stability and peace of mind.

Thanks for letting me vent.

#Depression #Anxiety #anger #SuicidalThoughts

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I'm LGBTQ+. I'm transmasc non-binary. I'm otherkin (not human). I'm Black. I have autism (please don't call my autism a disorder/disability/syndrome) and anxiety, and someone with trauma. I cry very easily. I am overweight. I am a part of a plural/collective. I am non-romantically polyamorous. And every damn day, I feel like this world called society is just here to for the sole purpose to shit on others, betray others, or just to secretly judge others, including me.

Every day, it is getting much harder and harder to believe that there is a single damn individual out there (other than my current therapist, all of my partners, my dad, and a few friends) who has common sense, is open-hearted, is open-minded, and doesn't like to discriminate or invalidate others for being different or for experiencing different things, or labeling themselves differently. Sometimes, the anxiety gets to the point where it seems like going out is stupid for me. What's the point?

It's like almost every damn community I've been a part of (and left) and witnessed just LOVES to INVALIDATE OTHERS SOMEHOW?! It's so annoying and stupid and it's just like... why can't you just fucking accept someone for who they are??? All of this just makes me so fucking angry and just...!!

...Sigh. Now that that's off my chest... may I ask for advice on how to go about this? I already currently seeing a therapist, luckily. Right now, it is very very hard for me to get off this mindset because I believe it's true, sadly.. this society and all of other individuals' opinions is tearing me apart..

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #MentalHealth #helpme #Vent #venting #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #SocialAnxietyDisorder #anger #help #Society #Advice #triggerwarning #Neurodiversity #LGBTQIA #plural #otherkin

I have so many panick attacks and anger outbursts during which I threaten to k*ll myself. It scares the hell out of me. I'm ruining all the wonderful friendships I have, I get closer thinking they'll be my saviour, and the only one forever by my side, then when they get close I run away, become rude and give them the silent treatment. I haven't been diagnosed with BPD yet, but seems I show some signs. I just see no solution, I'm scared I'll die. Please, somebody help me. Can a kind soul suggest me what to do? I'm going crazy.

Stay strong y'all!

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PanicAttacks #anger

I've never been good at describing my emotions, since childhood I repressed everything, for it was too much to bear. And it still is. I can't recognize my feelings and I'm overwhelmed by them. Especially by loneliness and anger. Today it seems so hard that I ask myself if it's still worth trying. I don't know anymore. I'm so confused. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Loneliness #anger #PTSD

Hardest part of healing right now is recognizing the shit you tolerated from friends, coworkers, family, and even spouses. As you begin to recover and realize your worth outside of people pleasing…. You start to see how you were taken advantage of. How you were mistreated…. How you were taken for granted.

You get mad at them for how they behaved… you get mad at yourself for letting it happen. I have to fight the urge to be petty, to get revenge, to be spiteful. But it’s so hard….

And then I wonder, is it worth it….

#ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Recovery #anger

Have you ever been angry and yelled at someone you love. Like to a caretaker or someone you take care of that's sick. For no reason even you just explode with anger then guilt sets in. #Anxiety #anger # frustrated
# chronic illness 😠💢😬😤🥴😳😿🙀🤐