Psoriasis

I definitely need to work on how often I vent frustration with the body I have been given. Every so often I have to stop and readjust my thoughts for the better, thanking my body for all it does to try to do what I want.
It does the best it can and I need to appreciate what it can offer.

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I don't have top dysphoria and I don't usually have bottom dysphoria*. But like right now when I have a yeast infection I feel broken. I feel so gross. But one of my most important mottos is "treat the body you have". I'm taking my meds and pauley helps by putting the betamethasone clotrimazole cream on my open sores. Id be lost without her. The pain is at 7 and the itching is at 7 also. I'm very uncomfortable. Pauley said it looks pretty bad.

Yes I am trans and would love to be the manliest man of mantown but I never will be. And that's ok because I still like some feminine clothes and my style is very mixed.

I am back on testosterone and letting it do its magic. My facial hair is coming in thick. Especially down the sides of my face. The only facial hair that isn't growing better is my wimpy mustache.

My voice is cracking again so it's getting deeper. But I'm also breaking out with acne on my torso and chest. My scalp and facial psoriasis is awful and it's effecting my beard.

So some good, plenty of bad. Such is life.

*Dysphoria: imagine you were born with a penis on your forehead. Everyone says it's normal because it's how you were born. But you don't feel right. You're uncomfortable, anxious, depressed, and want to have it removed because for you it doesn't feel normal.

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Hey. I’ll try to keep this short as it’s way too much if I go into details.
2 years ago began the start of the newest problems.
August 2024, they increased and got worst at a way faster rate.

Diagnosis:
Vitiligo
Recurrent staph/MRSA/cellulitis
Folliculitis/Eczema/Prurigo Nodularis
Anemia (most of my life)
Thickened endometrium
Hormone imbalances
Migraines
Spinal injuries
Mental health (ptsd/severe anxiety/depression)
Chronic swollen throat/tonsils/lymph nodes
Sinusitis
Chronic dry cough
Low BP
Recent deviated septum
Fatigue, malaise
Body aches/weakness
Carpal tunnel
Skin intolerance to hot/cold
Recurrent UTI’s
Fibromyalgia
Recurrent ear infections / ear staph
Eustachian tube dysfunction
Hearing loss
Uterine fibroids & cysts
Memory loss
ADHD
Severe Insomnia with nightmares
IBS/GERD
TMJ/Bruxism

Not yet diagnosed:
Raynauds (2 almost constantly blue toe nails, recently started in second, 1st has been present last two years off and on)
Chronic chills
Brittle nails
Hair loss (possibly medication related)

Recent testing:
A few genetic tests
Allergy testing
Several autoimmune panels

Current additional issues:
Oral thrush (due to long term antibiotic usage - close to four months now)
Ear pressure/fullness along with dark red/purple spot inside filled with liquid ? Also spots of white appearing pus that pop to drain
— can’t handle loud noise or cold air currently. Severe ear itching.
Eye itch and redness (not pink eye)
Muscle weakness and twitching - minimal long-term control in arm muscles

Pending:
Additional testing
Meeting hematology
CT of neck/throat/nose
Hysterectomy (paused until healthy)

Immediate Family history of:
Lupus (blood work shows low middle numbers not high enough to diagnose)
Celiac (ruled out by endo/colonoscopy)
Psoriasis
RA (ruled out by blood work)
Heart issues

All I can say is yes, I’m in pain. And yes, I’m exhausted. And frustrated. I’m not a crier and all I do is start crying all the time. I have 4 kids and I can’t be the best for them. I am failing everywhere in life and I just need to get this fixed or someone to finally step in and help because I can’t keep declining like this.

I am a veteran. I have little say in my health care. I can’t get a second opinion. Getting a rheumatologist seems to be impossible despite numerous doctors telling me I should see rheumatology. I’m feeling so defeated. If I could at least narrow things down it would help so much, so I could share my research with my doctors. I have several things on my list but I need to get a really good list. Please help if you can think of what may be causing all of this.

Thank you.

*** I would share many more pictures if I could 💕

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Pauley and I spent a few hours popping pimples and removing ingrown hair. Now she's napping and I'm back in bed. We were gonna make bacon and eggs for dinner tonight but not sure if we're gonna do it when she wakes up. I have a grey purple lump on my left breast and I wasn't sure if it's a pimple or an abscess. I popped it with my diabetic lancet. It bled a bit but nothing came out.

I put facial psoriasis cream on my eyebrows. They're very bad. Big scabby flakes. My face is starting to get bad again. I'm so stressed out.