Hi, I’m just gonna word vomit and hope it makes sense.
I’m a recently diagnosed young adult female with BPD, Bipolar 2, PTSD and Bulimia Nervosa. My father was known to have schizoaffective tendencies but refused treatment and heavily abused drugs to cope. He became absent from my life when I was young and after he left, my family said I’d stand at the window ‘waiting for him to come back’ then go downstairs at night and stare out the window as if I was talking to someone.
From what I remember as a child, I’ve reacted and had a distinct difficulty distinguishing things I hear and see from real and unreal since I can go back.
But as I’ve aged, around the transition of sophomore to junior year, I’ve reflected and noticed I’ve had increasingly worrisome behavior, which led me to seek help, but I’m still struggling with trying to direct my thoughts to my psych and therapist. I began recklessly driving, leading to two car accidents in one year, credit card debt, no savings over two/three years of work, impulsive buying and behavior, s/h and multiple attempts (and more earlier in my childhood.)
Can someone please direct me I guess towards what I should bring up to my therapist or psych? I feel like I sound crazy, and a lot of my family tells me it’s not that bad, but it’s becoming detrimental to my daily life. #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SuicideAttempt #Drugs #Therapist #Psychatrist #medications #Hallucinations #Delusions