delusions

Join the Conversation on
delusions
358 people
0 stories
24 posts
Note: The hashtags you follow are publicly viewable on your profile; you can change this at any time.
  • Explore Our Newsletters
  • What's New in delusions
    All
    Stories
    Posts
    Videos
    Latest
    Trending
    Community Voices

    What hallucinations / delusions / paranoid thoughts have you had before? #BipolarDisorder

    What hallucinations / delusions / paranoid thoughts have your bipolar caused you to see / hear / experience in the past? I was recently diagnosed and want to know what kinds of things I might experience. So far, I’ve mostly heard about bipolar folk “experiencing” things related to religion or the government.
    #BipolarDisorder #Hallucinations #Delusions #ParanoidThoughts

    1 person is talking about this
    Community Voices

    The doorbell rang

    Fe fi fo fum the giant stomped
    Then the doorbell rang
    Fairies danced, and crickets sang
    Something to sell by the Light of the Moon
    All bottled up, and Shining, glittering like gold
    A dizzy, spinning dancing to tune
    To catch the eye, the ear, and mesmerize
    Turn up the heartbeat, and raise the spirits
    Lock you in it's fantasy, make you lose reality
    The side effects are severe, and Fabintasy is nightmare in reality
    You hit the ground, you look around, how had you not seen
    The warning was there, but it was disguised, you see
    The Rhythm and Melody, LED you away from where it lay
    Mixed and mingled in words of romantic play
    The lyrics and meanings lost as you danced along
    All caught up in the Rhythm, and beat, and the melody
    #BipolarDisorder #Mania #psycoticbreak #Paranoia #Delusions

    5 people are talking about this
    Community Voices

    Sorry for all the hashtags but I’m not quite sure what is going on with me. I have been given a few different diagnoses in the past (BPD, Bipolar, Depression, Anxiety) but none have really seemed to fit and attempted treatments have been unsuccessful and have sometimes made things worse. I have attempted suicide twice (around 15 years ago) and have been hospitalised three times (between 10 and fifteen years ago) but found being hospitalised extremely traumatic and frightening. I was told by a psychiatric nurse at the time that my suicide attempts were not genuine (they were) and that I was attention seeking and manipulative (I was tired and just wanted the pain to stop). I have been reluctant to engage with mental health services since but, last year, I was referred during a very difficult period. Partly as a result of Covid, pressure on services and my CPN being on sick leave, I have not had to deal with them much. I have been seeing a therapist independently every week for about a year and, although she does not believe in labels, she thinks that a long history of multiple traumas and dissociation are the cause of my difficulties and not BPD or Bipolar. We have been doing psychodynamic therapy involving IFS and the things that I have been experiencing most of my life make sense now in a way that they never have. I have been frightened to reveal too much to the MH team for fear that I may be hospitalised or medicated again. I have heard voices of parts ever since I can remember and losing time is a common occurrence. The work that I am doing with my therapist necessitates me communicating with parts and dealing with some pretty raw stuff and I have found my symptoms ramping up. In addition to voices and lost time, I have been feeling increasingly paranoid (not entirely without reason) and frightened. Although I know rationally that it can’t be happening, I feel that people are able to know what has happened and what I’m thinking. It feels like I am being stripped of protective layers and everyone can see me for what I am. I don’t like being around people. There have also been occasions where I have heard a particular word spoken by my therapist in one of my sessions and then, directly afterwards, seen or heard something related (e.g. the word “jigsaw” and a song with that word in the title plays on my music stream which has more than 1000 songs and is on shuffle, then I pass a small shop with jigsaws in the window and then my daughter brings one out to play with that evening). I tell myself that it is just coincidence and I am noticing it because of the context but I don’t entirely believe it.I don’t know whether or not to speak to the MH team. My CPN is still off and I don’t want to be accused of attention seeking. I am also frightened to speak because I don’t want to have to go into the traumas that provide context. At the same time, I know that what I’m feeling isn’t normal compared to other people. Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks 🙏

    11 people are talking about this
    Erica Camp

    How to Help Someone With Paranoid Delusions in the Workplace

    People have described me as icy when I am symptomatic. This usual bubbly happy person suddenly becomes cold, icy, and aggressive. This has been a monumental struggle in the workplace for some of my coworkers differentiating between the “real” me or my core personality and the delusional, protective self that is cold or icy. People crave to be understood and this is my craving. Just because I am symptomatic in the moment and seemingly a different person, doesn’t mean that my core personality is different. It just means that I am in need of protection and understanding. Soon, I will return to the person that is capable and a strong leader. One of my symptoms is delusions and paranoid delusions. I work in retail and this makes it especially hard interacting with customers and coworkers. Strangers are especially dangerous. In addition to that, I have developed mild agoraphobia according to my psychiatrist. But what I really want to hone on is the ways you can help someone with paranoid delusions, specifically in the workplace. As a reminder, you have the ability to request reasonable accommodations and if I am symptomatic, I am allowed up to an hour additional break. This is crucial to my mental health and well-being and I encourage every person to request accommodations as needed. It has given me opportunities and safety that I otherwise wouldn’t have. With paranoid delusions or persecutory delusions, which are mainly when the individual thinks harm is occurring or going to occur, I primarily think people are trying to kill me — nothing specific, but general fear. I know these instances occur because people have told me that I say these things, but I have few or blurred memories of these events. This has occurred since I was 5 years old, when my mom would leave me alone with my biological father. Childhood trauma is often linked to psychosis . According to Ingo Shafer M.D. and Helen L. Fisher Ph.D., this is possibly linked to the “negative perceptions of the self, negative affect, and psychotic symptoms, as well as biological mechanisms such as dysregulated cortisol and increased sensitivity to stress.” Other examples of persecutory delusions include: 1. Neighbors are spying on me.2. Police are following me around.3. Government is setting up cameras and watching me.4. People are stealing my stuff. Some of these delusions can be very specific but they can also be quite vague, which is what I experience. Most people find delusions to be a very scary, real and confusing thing to encounter for the person inflicted and the person observing. For instance, someone is out to get me, but I can’t quite articulate “who” this person is. The specific delusions I have experienced within the workplace include: 1. My boss is trying to kill me.2. My coworker is sexually harassing me and is very aggressive.3. My relative is coming to my work to harm me. One of my favorite articles published by the National Alliance on Mental Illness by Kim Runkle talks about the different ways you can help a loved one who is experiencing delusions. I am including some of these tips but with a more workforce spin on it. Most of my coworkers and loved ones feel like they cannot help me when I am gripped with psychosis and in this article, my hope is to shed light on understanding delusions but also in ways you can help. Runkle talks about how delusions should not be disputed or reinforced, and I think this is one of the biggest helpers in my situation at work. It is not helpful to argue with me or tell me that I am wrong that my boss is not trying to kill me because no matter what you say to me, my belief will not be shaken. It is embodied in this false belief and will not be swayed. It is common for delusions to change based on new information. For instance, I have an old family friend struggling with paranoia who believes that there is trouble at the borders in Texas. When someone declared to him that it was not a concern to him, this delusion shifted into believing that he was an FBI agent sent on a mission to rescue people from ICE and the government was hiding things from him to make his mission harder. Another thing that is incredibly helpful is to be validated in my concerns. For instance, I am scared someone is trying to harm me. A good and healthy response to this would be redirection and acknowledgment, such as: “Oh, that must be really scary. What have you been reading recently?” Or another example that is incredibly soothing is talking about a significant other or loved one. This redirects their delusions to something that they can grasp with equally high emotions. Asking me about my husband Sam is the easiest way to ease my mind and allows me to contact him. One last thing that must be understood is that we cannot express what we need in these moments of delusions. It is important to educate yourself to better understand in helping someone with a mental illness or delusions. However, I will say that I am grateful for every moment a coworker has tried to help me during these moments. Even though some of them have done more harm than good, the support and love that has been expressed makes all the difference in my road to recovery. In order to better manage my delusions, I have taken a second leave of absence from my work. Wish me all the best in my endeavors to become a healthier, whole version of myself as I struggle to navigate my mental health . My main concern in writing these articles is to articulate my experiences and help my coworkers and loved ones better understand the challenges I face. Currently, I am working on a kit I can bring to work with me to help manage my symptoms without the aid of other people.

    Community Voices

    Question

    Is it normal with bipolar to have some delusional thoughts occasionally or stacking thoughts that create anxiety?? #Bipolar #Delusions

    8 people are talking about this
    Community Voices

    Do you guys find it difficult to deal with family members who have #Schizophrenia ? Can you please provide some effective ways to handle #Delusions ?

    9 people are talking about this
    Community Voices
    Community Voices

    What should I do?

    Hi, I’m just gonna word vomit and hope it makes sense.
    I’m a recently diagnosed young adult female with BPD, Bipolar 2, PTSD and Bulimia Nervosa. My father was known to have schizoaffective tendencies but refused treatment and heavily abused drugs to cope. He became absent from my life when I was young and after he left, my family said I’d stand at the window ‘waiting for him to come back’ then go downstairs at night and stare out the window as if I was talking to someone.
    From what I remember as a child, I’ve reacted and had a distinct difficulty distinguishing things I hear and see from real and unreal since I can go back.
    But as I’ve aged, around the transition of sophomore to junior year, I’ve reflected and noticed I’ve had increasingly worrisome behavior, which led me to seek help, but I’m still struggling with trying to direct my thoughts to my psych and therapist. I began recklessly driving, leading to two car accidents in one year, credit card debt, no savings over two/three years of work, impulsive buying and behavior, s/h and multiple attempts (and more earlier in my childhood.)
    Can someone please direct me I guess towards what I should bring up to my therapist or psych? I feel like I sound crazy, and a lot of my family tells me it’s not that bad, but it’s becoming detrimental to my daily life. #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SuicideAttempt #Drugs #Therapist #Psychatrist #medications #Hallucinations #Delusions

    2 people are talking about this
    Community Voices
    Community Voices