reasonableaccomodations

anger boils in my blood
I asked for reduced hours
“No”
I asked for later morning starts
“No”
I asked about a job share
“No”

So I know I am reaching my edge.
My limit.
I am decompensating,
more tearful, chest hurts,
feels like I can’t take a deep breath
I can feel my thoughts tangle and jumble
I can’t sleep
Getting up in the morning is increasingly difficult.

Yes I clearly stated I was requesting accommodations for my disability. Still, not options.
I can’t bear it.
I can’t bear the inevitable decompensation spiral coming. I can’t bear the humiliation of not functioning well. Of the coming critiques, advice, and attempts to fix me.

I don’t want to quit
But greater is my desire to avoid abject failure
Greater is my desire to not sink into despair and the
Longing to not exist and face further embarrassment and professional humiliation.

I chose to resign over ‘decompensate and fail’
Yet again, I am disadvantaged

Not eligible for unemployment because I resigned voluntarily.

There is no win in sight.

Only further struggle and uncertainty

#MightyPoets
#Work #reasonableaccomodations

After a 2 month battle over #reasonableaccomodations and #ADA , I gave 30 days notice at my job. Today Im supposed to meet with my manager and HR (its also the end of the pay period). I used to love this job and company and Im so sad how everything has turned into a petty power struggle and they care more about money than their employees health. I probably have enough for a #Lawsuit but I dont have the physical or emotional strength to continue the fight. #LymeDisease #Work #Headache #Fatigue

Reading the company EEO policy it sounded like inclusion & reasonable accommodations were awaiting the asking for eligible employees.

For me: it has been a full year since I was naive enough to self identify & boldly ask for accommodations. Two denied RA requests,& a filed EEO complaint later, No flexibility in scheduling, nor telework option will be allowed. I’m ready to wave the white flag of surrender. It has been nothing but an opportunity to experience bias & discrimination. #Discrimination , #ADA ,#reasonableaccommodations