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#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder , at my age, you would have thought that I would be able to accept rejection# that it is ok for men, my ex not to want me or communicate with me anymore.. He made it clear enough months ago, he said he could not love me# that way anymore, that he wanted out#I begged him to stay. Offered him money#Said I would lose weight#I have lost 4stone and still losing, I offered him so many things, but I couldn't give him what he wanted a partner who didn't text 30 times a day, moaned when a text didn't have the right number of kisses, a partner who continuously checked on him.. The list goes on. So now he's gone#I still all him once a week, text him once a week. Today I offered him phone sex.. Where did any modicum of self respect go? I am hating# myself right now. Can I let him go. He loved me, he told me he would love me forever #
Down but not gone#