same

I painted for eight hours today.I haven't this much in months.I will feel it tomorrow and I am giving myself a break Monday.I need transparency and I'm not going to get it.It is,not right for this many people to be,messing with me.For what, I don't get it.I am to be phased out,of another family.Is this what healing is? no.Because,I cannot be healed and I'm not some journey.im trying to get on with life and I keep being sabataged.This is not, me quitting.I needed clarity.I asked questions and asserted myself.I was, not arguing.If I had been a man, it would not be arguing it would be questioning.I am going to keep setting, My goals. For me.If they continue, Will will leave.I can stay and let legal handle it.I will not sacrifice myself or my son,for him again.I never thought it would happen.life was supposed to be built with someone.He never wanted that with me.He hates me and his mother, she can live with what she's done.Both of them.

Three things that make my struggle with my illness so much worse!