OCD, Fear of Dying, Fear of Numbers
Hello! Since a young age I had a hyper-fixation on certain numbers and patterns, as well as an overarching fear of religion and the unknown. As I got older (I’m now in college) - it has grew into high-functioning anxiety but some days I truly can not function. I have focused on certain especially scary numbers in my brain and have grown to fear them. This directly ties into my fear of dying. I am constantly looking for “patterns” and setting ultimatums for short term relief. Some days I think my fears are stupid and other days they dictate my entire mood and persona.
Hoping someone can please tell me their experiences with anything remotely similar.