scaredofmyfuture

I can go day or weeks without true human contact. This world is my hell. Someone please tell me it’ll change.

I don’t want my depression to get worse, I don’t want to be older knowing I got many different mental illnesses. Just thinking about it makes me so scared of the future. Does it really get worse ?#Depression #Psychosis #Sadness #Anxiety #scared #scaredofmyfuture

On top of still getting over a devastating breakup, I was laid off from my job of 10 yrs Sept’18. It’s now Aug’19 & I’m still unemployed. I’ve applied to over 500 positions so it’s not like I dont try everyday... Im either overqualified, underqualified, and yes, there is alot of age discrimination. I’ve lost everything! My 401k, pension, savings just to pay my rent & bills. I have $30 now in my Accnt w all my bills due 9/1. Whatever family I do talk to isnt in the right place to help, even if I asked. The only reason why I havent taken my life is cuz of my girls. I self harm to make my pain go away. I feel helpless, worthless, ashamed, lonely, frustrated, and plain old stupid. I am so scared. I just don’t know how to do this anymore. #scared #alone #scaredofmyfuture

You would not take a wheelchair from a visibly disabled person. Why is it ok to take my pain medication away for my disability. New FDA regulations is causing my pain doctor to drastically reduce my prescription that I’ve been on since 2011 that allows me to live a “normal” ish life. It’s not the opioid that causes the addictions, it’s the individual and lack of responsibility as well as lack of monitoring that causes the addiction. I am paying the price for there addiction. #InvisibleDisability #scaredofmyfuture