#SexualDysfunction so 3 years ago I was raped. Right after I developed sexual repulsion. I mean thinking about sex, talking about sex, reading about it too. I used to be hypersexual. I'm a gay trans man in the leather community, sex is the topic of the day every day in my community. Now I'm diagnosed with sexual aversion disorder. I'm 39 and get nauseous when sex is brought up in any capacity.
Except for one person, my ex girlfriend. I can talk about it till I turn blue in the face it seems. We had a very good sexual relationship 4 years ago and honestly she's the only person I'd feel safe with in that regard. She doesn't judge me or make me feel stupid for how my brain is handling sex. I think I might be falling back in love with her and that's not a good idea cuz she decided she's a lesbian now.
So I guess this is my life now, right? Hopeless and broken.