I'm not sure if this is uniquely BPD but I haven't met anyone else who can relate to feeling this deeply so I can't help but wonder if it is.
When a death occurs, I don't process it. i feel absolutely nothing and then immediately block out the information. Inevitably, though, I remember and it suddenly feels like I'm hit by a bus. I feel as though the death is happening inside of me and I feel like I'm sinking into the floor. It's all I can think about and then it becomes this vacuum where time freezes and the little bit of identity that I I have found is replaced by pain and loss. It happens a lot in life but lately it has become entirely too much when it concerns death.
I'm wondering if anyone else can relate to this experience or just in general feeling emotions so intensely you become them.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Borderline #BPD #Death #Grief #Loss #Pain #Sinking #Emotion