I want to give up and give in but I can’t and won’t because then they win and my family loses, but damn it. I’m fucking tired and I’m tired of fighting. Tired of hating how I look or can’t wear my clothes. Tired of feeling physically like shit and mentally trampled. I am tired guys. I want to give up, but I won’t.
It’s been a week since my switch was flipped and I went from, what I realize now to have been, a productive manic state to an extremely low depressive state. I know what the trigger was, and I can’t “fix” it, but my brain will not turn off the constant negative thoughts about my life. I am stuck in this dungeon of self destruction and there is no one who can understand what it feels like or why it is happening. My marriage is suffering, my job is suffering....everything. I know there’s a light at the end, there always is, I just can. It convince my brain. Please, I need some encouragement today....... #needsomelove #Tellmeimnotalone
Mines my pets. Idk what I would do if they weren’t around. #Tellmeimnotalone #whatsyourreason
I get super antsy and irritable and overwhelmed when my environment is messy or cluttered. I live with 7 other people. 3 other people in my room. So it’s a never ending feeling for me. But it seems like randomly at times the anxiety over it or triggered by it is much more than usual. To the point where I’m snapping at everybody and have a frenzied laser-like focus to clean it up. Does this happen to anyone else? W/ mess or anything else? #Tellmeimnotalone #Anxiety