God is better than the best thing the world has to offer.
Title is a bit different from what I’m talking about. But my higher power keeps me grounded through stressful situations.
My boyfriend is freaking out on me and super in his head about me cheating on him which I’m not. If I don’t respond he freaks the fuck out. I am starting to work the program of SLAA (sex & love addicts anon.) but I feel as though I keep relapsing on my boyfriend and just need some space.
He literally came to my house and hit the cigarette out of my hand at me. He gets so angery and called me 100x and showed up with no notice. I’ve had a migraine all day and trying to sleep it off but he thinks I’m talking to someone bc he has ptsd from the past,
I get it but you can’t just explode and cuss me out for what I’m doing. I did nothing wrong!!!!
I felt super anxious so I talked to some friends and then heard that my newest closest friend I have has been talking trash about me to this guy I fuckdd. She’s like flirting with him which idc if she gets with him or whatever but don’t tell me bad things about me wtf.
Why are girls so fucking fake these days. I guess I used to be to some people but Jesus I need older friends.
Anyways my program and higher power have been a blessing in this whole mess bc with out them I would probably be cutting myself or drinking the pain away.
Instead I made an amends to target which I have been meaning to do but putting off. So that got me out of my head and felt good. I also got a hair clip and cute simple white t shirt!
Also I heard a friend of mine died from an overdose and it just hit me a few minutes ago and I felt super sad because I always sat by him at the meetings and talked to him. He was funny but got kicked out for not working his program.
So yeah that about it for now, sorry for word vomiting my entire life but I just had to write it out and get it out of my head.