willitevergetbetter

So, my oldest son graduates this year.....we have planning for the three of us to join 3 other families for a celebratory cruise. Down payments have been made. Rooms reserved. Except now? My husband doesn’t think he will have enough vacation days.... the cruise is in July. My son would still get to go (positive) but now I’m crushed and devastated. . . When will it ever get better? #tired #angry #Justwanttocry #willitevergetbetter

I feel somewhere somehow stucked everyday in my life bcoz of social anxiety problem though I have huge dream & curiosity towards achieving something better but my anxiety is holding me back... Sometimes it puts me in quite awkward moment in crowd i cant even escape & feel totally dumb with helpless voice & red face. Kind of finding solution since my childhood, now I am 27 still can’t stand out of it but still hoping someone or something might help me on this to overcome it. #tired #Hesitation #help #feelingstuck #willitevergetbetter

Cannot relax, cannot stay still,
Swallowing another fucking pill.
Waiting for change, getting lost in time,
Realizing there’s no finish line.
Release my mind, let me be,
Why won’t you just set me free?
Follow me until the end,
But you are not my friend.
The finish line you think you see,
Is invisible to me.......