thepast

• " I Have Been Up Since 5:30 A.M. My Work Schedule Has Changed... Work Was OK Until My Mysterious Biological Aunt Came To My Work. Why Can't These People Just Stop Finding Me... Then We Talked...And She Started Telling Me That My Adoptive Parent's. Didn't Want MeTo Know About My Biological Family... Like T.B.H I Don't Want Nothing To Do With These People. And Now Out Of Nowhere They Want A Realtionship. I Was Curious But I'm Just So Over It. I'm Like Feeling Super Confused And Drained... Then She Kept Pushing Wanting To Know More About Me. I Don't Know If I Should Warn My Adoptive Sibling's... About This Lady. I Just Want To Be Left At Peace... " • #MajorAnxiety #Depression ☆ Skaoi Kvitravn ☆

Drowning.... everyday tears keep rolling even when there’s no control.
You would never know what the pain someone is experiencing without stopping by while driving .. everything just keeps going.. it’s bad when it’s gotten to the point of where you can’t even look at yourself in the mirror . You can’t even function during the day. The sadness, confusion, questioning and anger all stream from inside. Everything hurts yet you can’t do a damn thing about it. You try to talk about it but it doesn’t really matter to no one. Not even the one who you thought you could count on..
#ptsd #thepast

last week it all went from 2-3 a night and now , when you have four flashbacks including nightmares , and can’t get out of them , can’t remember them(some) and when you wake up your mind hurts, headache , but I’m feeling less fatigue today which is better. just a lot to wrap my head around , here’s to an intense week number 4 or 5, can’t remember . let’s hope it’s not nightly of this. any one else have it this bad?! #PTSD #thepast