understandmypain

I'm not looking for alot of sympathy or anything, maybe just some understanding and support. Early Monday morning I let my emotions get the best of me and I tried to end my own life. I am so mad at myself now for doing it and thankful I'm alive. I was admitted to a behavioral health ward at the hospital voluntarily. While I was there, on Christmas night my nephew was overrun by his own thoughts and emotions and he shot himself and passed away. There are so many emotions and things I was still trying to process of my own that is making this all so hard. My family is concerned of course but most of their support is going to my sister which is understandable, but wow is this hard. His funeral is Monday and I'm just going through the motions. People don't even realize but they make comments that are so hurtful, and they kind of pertain to me as well as him. Only thing is I didn't die. I'm grateful for that, but this situation is horrible. #imstillalive #suicidesucks #Family #understandmypain