My 36 year old daughter returned my texts from about a week or 2. She contacted some time between Christmas and New Years.
Back story, she was given a diagnosis about 4 years ago, for her mental health. She chose not to seek treatment. I did the whole pick up from county and bring her home about 3 years ago. Day 3 of staying with me. She became very hateful. I told her she wasn't going to stay with me if she was going to treat me that way. I end up with a black eye. Following day get a restraining ord. A week or 2 after it expired. 2 years was the length of the RO. I ask her what she needs and she tells me that I'm the only one that understands her. I had just started therapy. I asked her if she was receiving help. She came up with some reason of why in 2 years time, she didn't attend any type of help.
Any way, Christmas. She text me wanting to know names of men that abused me before she was born. I wrote her text explaining she didn't need to worry about that. They were both dead. A few days later I remembered her saying she needed closure. It hit me she may have been suicidal. So I text her and let her know I wanted to see if she was feeling better. That she was in my prayers. This evening I get a text from her telling me she didn't want my prayers, that if I didn't give her f***ing money she was going to delete my number and never speak to me again. It didn't end there, but after a few more insults. I blocked her from texting my phone.
I'm trying really hard not to beat myself up, but part of me keeps saying I'm her mom and I should try to help. I've told her in the past that I'm not a professional and that's what she needs. I buried 2 infant sons before her birth and she is my 1 and only. Give me your thoughts. Thank you for listening.
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