Worriedaboutfuture

Why do I feel like I am not here. Like I am a body but no person. The body is material and yet with no soul or person what will the mind do. The mind is empty of all and yet so full. It wont stop it just keeps moving and going. The struggle to slow it is beyond compare. So hard is it to just be who I know I am. People pushing me to do things I am not yet ready to do. Pushing to solve all problems at once to help when I myself am struggling. Oh what to do. Do I go with my thoughts and so people see the pain or do I keep it in my mind and hide it all from the world from this dear to me. Yet those dear to me seem to bot understand. I am not them I am me and I am a nobody cause i am a no person with a empty mind but yet not empty. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Worriedaboutfuture #SuicidalThoughts

I'm on Humira for almost a year now and I've been on immunosuppressants for like 3 years. Every time I turn on the TV, all I see is how I'm at greater risk than everyone at my age and I'm so sick of it. It makes me really worried and sad. #Worriedaboutfuture #COVID19

I've been diagnosed with ulcerative colitis two years ago. No medication worked for me until my current treatment. Now I'm taking Remicade and it seems to work but there are lots of side effects. Like headaches, feeling sick, dizziness and nause. It kinda started to affect my school and I'm really worried. I've worked so hard for this and now I feel like it's sliding away from my hands. #Anxiety #Worriedaboutfuture

Got a lot going on in my life right now. Hubby fixing to possibly retired from the military soon. Then possibly move from SoCal back to England where I was born and raised. I have fibro, spinal stenosis which is getting worse and anxiety about the whole thing. Nobody really seems to understand how I’m feeling. My emotions are everywhere about it. I want to move home to be close to family but this life we have built with our children has been here in America for the past 14yrs. It’s like starting from the very beginning again. Tonight I have so much pain throughout my body and my anxiety is high. My hormones are all over the place. Just wish I could click my fingers and be back home and everything be how it needs to be. I wish life was a little easier sometimes without mammoth sized decisions. I don’t feel adult enough to be making such big choices. I want to live in Neverland with Peter and the lost boys.... my kids would be happy there right?!