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Totally forgot about my Spanish and it takes over two hours and now I’m questioning can I get it done in time

Both of my parents and my elder brother are doctors. When I had to choose my subjects for 11th standard, I knew I don't want to choose PCB or PCM Or commerce for that matter. I had only one option left and that was humanities. I was quite happy with that if I am being honest. But my parents, especially my father was very persistent on making me choose Biology. I knew I didn't want to be a doctor so he scolded me, made me meet with people who would basically talk me into taking biology. I didn't bulge. So they went to our principal who is a good friend of my parents, he told them that if she takes up Biology she will flunk so it's better we give her an easier subject that was humanities. I was hurt by what he said but I was happy that atleast now I can do what I want. He told me if I am taking humanities I'll have to pursue law in college, I didn't want to that either but at that time I had no option than to nod to whatever he says because at that time all I cared was the subjects I had to opt for 11th, so I thought whatever will happen, will happen after 2 years so it can wait till then I'll just go with the flow. So I went with the flow. I scored a good percentage in 12th standard with those marks I could have gone to a great college for pursuing BA in psychology and I also got selected for the same. But my father came in, he said that BA is not course you will have to have a professional degree etc etc. He scolded me and what not. I was not happy. Now I am in 3rd year doing law, I feel as if I stuck. I have nowhere to go, nobody to talk to and nobody to believe me. MA in clinical psychology needs a bachelor degree in psychology which I don't have. I feel as if I trapped and I am unable to do anything. I am always reminded that I am a failure. The only thing that made me go all 7-8 years of depression was my career and now I am left with nothing. To all those people who feel struck in doing something and have a way out of it, please follow your heart. As for me I know where my heart is, but I don't know how do I get out of it. #MentalHealth #Depression #Anixous #AnxietyDisorderNotOtherwiseSpecified #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveandRelatedDisorders #PanicAttack #Angerissues

Wide awake at 2:25 in the morning. #Sleep #Anixous

Autistic Meltdowns- Where your sensory get that much intense you freak out and can’t cope with by crying or falling part with frustration which leads to breaking stuff. #MentalHealth #Autism
From anxiety or something upsetting me too. #anixety #Anixous
Many moons ago but wanted to ask if anyone use to break stuff or still do in meltdowns xxx #AutismMeltdowns #Meltdowns