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Trying not to be envious

Some days I really question what the point is anymore. I try not to be envious or bitter towards others. Especially if the other is family.
I have always felt like the black sheep of the family. Yes i’m very introverted, shy and people sometimes takes my silence for not caring. I have always hated family gatherings because it means i have to be social.
With that being said i’m not sure how to feel or think when i found out my parents, sister and her family are planning a vacation in Alaska. No one asked us if we would be interested or not. This will be the 5th year in a row that they all have vacationed together somewhere other than a local lake. Ya we might not be able to afford it but would of at least like to have been asked.
We moved to where my family is, wife hoped would heal the rift between my family and me, to be closer. After 6 years we are talking about moving back to where her family is. Ya they her family annoys me but at least they make the effort. #angry #CheckInWithMe #bipolardisorder2 #BipolarDisorderII #hurtfeelings


How do you get diagnosed with #BipolarDisorderII

I think I may have it in some form, as long as I can remember I’ve had periods of feeling high as a kite
(weeks at a time) spending stupid amounts of money on stupid shit, going out and hooking up for no reason other than I can, little to no sleep, general impulsivity. Then followed by my mood crashing and burning, guilt and shame, again for a few weeks at a time, then relatively stable again. I’ve told this to doctors and I was on quetiapine, it worked for a bit so they weren’t bothered about a diagnosis as long as I was better. Then they stopped working so I stopped even bothering trying 🤷🏻‍♀️ Like what’s the point if doctors don’t want to acknowledge that there’s something really wrong with me and diagnose me already?!