hurtfeelings

I am utterly over this charade of everyone saying they are ok when they are not. Looking at my parent's dysfunctional relationship from the outside has just really made me made at BOTH parties. Not one, but both. The sheer fact that I've seen this man bring my mom down to size so many times that it's disgusting. And it seems like when she does male herself big enough to speak her mind, she shrinks herself down with apologies. At this point, apologies are band-aids. I'm through explaining myself to grown people about my emotional discomfort within the family only to have blame being put back on me or others. It's obvious that I've was asking too much of my step-father to give me emotional support that he couldn't give. And I don't think he could ever give that to my mom either. This is beyond us now. EVERYONE NEEDS THERAPY! There's a huge lack of empathy here and I really don't care about how the world views me at this point. If I gotta be the one to break glass ceiling on this, I will. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #anger #hurtfeelings #Family

For the last couple of days it feels like there is an invisible force that is separating me from everyone else. And today, I couldn't hide my anger. First, at home, I found a roach on the ceiling and my mom and I were trying to get rid of it. It ended up getting away somewhere and in the midst of this happening, she says that I'm "useless". I know that she didn't mean it in a demeaning way, but it still hurt. I was hoping to move past it, but I couldn't fight the tears. Then, at work, I can just feel a shift in how other people treated me. Everyone seemed to be cool with each other and they would be short with me. So that, on top of being the odd man out most of the time, I literally couldn't do the "good girl act" anymore. And I'm the type of person where if I'm upset, I won't talk nor will I respond to you. I also notice that when they pick up on that, they will leave me alone or are cautious when I'm around. I'm trying to cool down at the moment, but once I'm at a place of anger or frustration, it's hard for me to come down from that. I'll start hating everything and everyone because of that. It's a bad place to be in, but it feels comfortable after a while. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #anger #hurtfeelings #Hatred #frustration

I had this dream that I was abandoned by someone I cared about and he went back to his ex and this is what I’ve been fearing in real life and I woke up with a heavy feeling in my chest and I started freaking out. I feel like I’m losing control of myself and I feel like I’m just losing again. I’m wondering why I’m still here again. I just know that I’m no longer needed. I just know that I’m going to get hurt again. I’m hating myself right now because at this point, it doesn’t matter if I’ve been a good person with a loving heart... I’m just not good enough for anyone. Every man that enters my life always leaves me. Everything just hurts, I feel like my skin is on fire and I want to just sit in bed and cry. I just know that I’m going to get abandoned again, everyone seems to be fine with hurting me as long as they get what they want. #MentalHealth #Depression #abandomentissues #FearOfAbandonment #hurtfeelings

I’m in a ldr for about 5 years now and we like broke up after 3 years in that and later go together and yesterday my partner told me that she told about my depression and mental health issues to her family. I don’t understand how should I process it. I’ve never told about it to anyone other than her and she told that to her parents and I’m not angry because she said. I feel sad. I trusted her, I understand that she was in a emotionally weak state when we broke up and had to talk to someone but I cannot bear it that she told her family about my mental health condition.
Note: Where we live it’s kind of a taboo having depression and all. I once tried talking to my parents about this but they shouted at me saying I’m not praying to god enough that’s why I’m having such problems. I was sexually abused as a child and I never told anyone this except her. I can’t process what she did. I don’t know how to react to it. I don’t understand what I should do.
#ChildhoodSexualAbuse #Depression #Bipolar #severeanxietydisorder

I'm part of a pretty large choir in my state and have been for a very long time. I invited two friends who are both musically inclined both of which had shown interest in going and both of which were dating and had been for a while to go to our concert. Everything was set up and they were going to go. The concert is today and I woke up this morning to a text telling me that they broke up last night. I was very confused because I had been with them last night and they were the same as ever. The text said that they had been trying to decide if they should get married and they believe that they shouldn't. It sounds like this was a mutual decision and they ended on good terms but now the one who sent me the text isn't coming to the concert. I'm trying to be supportive and understanding but they broke up the night before the concert. They couldn't wait one day! I've been planning on both of them being there for months and I still really wish they would both go even just as friends. I know this is selfish thinking on my part but these kinds of things seem to happen to me all the time and I was hoping just once everything would go right. I'm feeling very hurt. I'm trying not to let it get to me because I still have to get ready and do this concert but that's proving very difficult. All I really want to do is curl up in my bed and forget I even have any friends, they only ever seem to disappoint me. How do I deal with the things that I'm feeling and how do I move past my own anger to be supportive of these people? #hurtfeelings #hurt #Disappointments #Breakups #Friends #help #Tryingtobestrong #Depression

i like this guy but he trick me and played with my feelings but hes really nice and i still am crushing hard help

So on Saturday I was out at breakfast with my aunts & they said something that really hurt & triggered me. So .. a little back story .. my aunt knew I was going to NYC for Memorial Day weekend. She happened to be going down too. She OFFERED me a ride. I accepted. Even tho a part of me didn’t want to. Because 1. I had to lie to my boss about why I needed to leave early which wasn’t good for my anxiety & 2. I had already planned my entire trip out. (I think I may have a touch of OCD possibly.) but I took the offer because she needed help with my adopted mom. Well apparently she felt a way about the fact that I didn’t offer to give gas money or anything. Firstly I’m sorry. Secondly I don’t really have money like that. I barely had money when I went to NYC. Had to use my credit card which is putting me further into debt which is making my anxiety even worse but whatever. So then, we went out to dinner Friday night & I really didn’t have much but I gave them $5 to put towards the tip. I mean I literally just had to pay rent I barely have $100 to my name. So Saturday morning we need to tip again .. so I make a joke “I would put something towards it but .. you know I don’t have any money.” & that’s when they started talking about how I’m grown & shouldn’t be going out expecting people to pay for me & should offer more & what not. I literally wanted to cry. I had to hold tears back as I was already having a rough couple days & the fact that they felt the need to attack me that way .. I love my family but I don’t know .. then they wonder why I always decline to go places or hang with them when they offer. Smh #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #hurtfeelings