Just out of the dark #Bipolar2 #Incest #PTSD
I had depression for 4 days. It started in therapy because we were talking about trauma. I still feel shame about it. I still remember the threat he said to me if I told. I cried myself to sleep that night. I got 3 hours of sleep that night. My depression continued but I still went to the museum with my mom but I was on the verge of tears because my mom is older and I am afraid of losing her. I decided to enjoy the glimmers in my apartment. The beautiful candles I put on, a hot shower and my hot chocolate. I just cozy up with my blanket. I even reached out I’m shocked I did that. Friday same depression but glimmers and self care helped me get through. Saturday was bad I had paranoid and delusional thoughts about someone in my group was trying to have me replaced as an admin and it wasn’t true. Sunday was less of depression but I didn’t sleep at all so my mood is elevated. I just focus on self care, gratitude and self compassion to help me through
