Hi, I've lived my entire life with my dad who has bipolar 2, although he is medicated and a very responsible parent and also feels guilty about me having to witness his episodes, talking bout the matter was a taboo even with my parents, I ended up suffering because of this as I had no one to reassure me or talk to me about my feelings, I ended up creating a shell and I have been diagnosed with both schizoid and paranoid personality disorders, which my psychiatrist believes besides genetics, my childhood has played a huge role in it. As of now I'm extremly suicidal and depressed, I have no way to live separately from my parents and being in my father's presence even if he is smiling is irritating feels dangerous. I am losing my mind and spiraling every second of the day and i have failed multiple attempts. Is there any way to distract me from these thoughts amd give me a peace of mind besides medication? My psychiatrist said I need antipsychotics but I am in an unfavourable situation and unable to take meds. And family therapy is not possible due to my father being sensitive.
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