I have had the worst year of my life dealing with smoldering multiple myeloma ( precursor to the blood cancer ), a clinical trial to delay progression but where the treatment drug may continue to depression, and many ongoing family stressors. I love my sisters , but cannot help but feel jealous when I see pictures of them enjoying life. I think I’ve smiled less that a handful of times since diagnosis last June. I am in talk therapy and just finishing up TMS therapy but still feeling terribly depressed - especially today.
I am contemplating divorce after 30 years.We have had years of unrelenting stressors including trying to help our drug abusing daughter ( many hospitalizations, interventions, rehabs ) and now she is back at home. I was also diagnosed last year with a precursor blood cancer and am now on immunotherapy. I am trying so hard to set limits with my daughter and a 23 year old son who live at home , and husband constantly tells me I am yelling at them when I ask them to do chores. We are in marriage therapy but not sure it is helping or maybe it is just time to separate . Very scary because of my health conditions but don’t know if it is possible to be more unhappy with my life than I am now. I also don’t like my town and don’t have a strong support network. I want a new life !