So how do I find a therapist who knows about BPD? I'm in rural Vic, I can relate to every single thing I hear about BPD, I got diagnosed bi polar about 20 yrs ago bte
#borderliners
A major deregulation issue has been happening for the past almost month. Uncontrollable reactions to so many things is irrational to me and others have called me on it but I can't calm or control it. I refuse to reach out or I've kept others at arm's length to a point I have most likely lost a few people put of my life. Unfortunately I've also been self medicating more from destructive impulsiveness taking over my common sense, it's trying to fill the emptiness that's just grown too much and hurts too badly to be left alone anymore. Its also the thing that's made me feel anything somewhat positive or normal. Made me feel human of you will.
All this because of a reminder of an incredibly deep and painful betrayal by a few I trusted as well as an anniversary of a major loss. But I feel there's more to this, like a background thing driving it behind the scenes and I don't know why or what it is. Has anyone else felt or noticed this ever happening?
It feels like the end of this deregulated emotional tantrum issue is finally ending, not wanting to see the damages that happened or find out how many people I hurt bad.
I hope you all take care and of able to have a good day. #mentalhealthdecline #tired #exhausted #frustrated
You just got diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder and you are certainly wondering what is going next, what it means, how severe it is.
Here are some hints and clues from my own experience of this unexpected journey.
Being diagnosed BPD is unlike diagnostic of a disease. It is a dysfunctional illness affecting your mental health from a "standardized" scheme.
It doesn't turn you into some kind of freak or serial killer monster. You are and will remain a worthy human being able to contribute to the well being of this world.
In fact, until this diagnostic you were already suffering from BPD without being aware of it. It sets up very early in life because of trauma. And those traumas are not as awful as being abducted, raped, physically abused, etc. No, just feelings abuses, either voluntarily by a person or by mistake, because we all are imperfect human beings. There are some clues it can be genetically based too.
At a final stage, BPD is definitely set in you at teenage. Many, people like me could live with it, unnoticed, until age of 47. It all depends of various factors, making BPD a very unique illness to each of us.
Knowing this will help you putting words on it and help you understanding your behaviors.
Because BPD is mostly this, unexpected behaviors from a standard point of view.
It doesn't make us inferiors, in fact BPDs are known to be smart individuals, and we can still make a living.
We "just" (it is do easy to write 😆) need to learn to take care of ourselves. To me, this journey in rediscovering myself, taught me to share. I don't hold onto myself feelings as I was before. But only with trusted people. Obviously.
My first hint to start feeling better, rather than healing, which is not appropriate to BPD is:
LOVE YOURSELF!
Love yourself as much as it is missing. Hug your inner child for hours.
Laugh from your mistakes. Do not get upset when you break or drop something, it was meant to happen.
Forgive others to forgive yourself. Let it go.
Be true to yourself.
Once you have started this, be willing to get better. Engage yourself in therapy. Search for hints to improve your wellbeing.
PINTEREST has been - and is still - a great help to me. It even leads me here. 🙂
You may eventually use DAYLIO, an Android app to track you mood if you wish.
And never forget, you are NOT alone! ❤
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #borderliners #borderlinediagnosis #Selfcare #loveyourself #youareworthit
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