I have bpd and am struggling to trust people again. I recently lost most of my friends. I also went through a bad friendship with a narcissist. I like this guy but don’t want to push him away and drive him crazy. Most guys think I am overwhelming. He’s put up with me for almost a month and hasn’t left. My mental health is somewhat way more heightened right now. I am getting nightmares of him and his friends making fun of me. I have alot of things I am unhappy about in my life. I don’t have a career, steady job or a full drivers license. I am wanting change. I am lonely but have no friends that make effort to be in my life. I blew my chance at meeting hin because of my anxiety. I am panicking and just saddened. I want to be able to not have so much anxiety the healthy friendships are not able to grow or function.

I am paranoid of getting hurt and it’s making everything harder to cope. I want normalcy and not to be compared for what I have to show for. I feel like I’ll never catch up or be enough for somebody to love. My own family or parents said I am hard to love. #hardtolove #friendships #BPD #Rejection #abandonmentissues #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety