LBGTQ2S

So yesterday I got drunk with a straight female friend.
She is always joking that she wants me to go down on her (even when she is sober) as she knows I'm bi-sexual..

She is my only female friend in this city (as I had to flee my home city and start over) well it's complex because I do think she is attractive but I value her more as a friend than I would like to be her 'experiment'

I'm 33 have Always been bi-sexual yet I've only slept with 3 women and most have them weren't really that into women.. I really would love to experience being with a woman who is actually into women!!

I got raped 8 months ago and haven't wanted sexual contact since (with anyone!)
I'm only just starting to feel attracted to people again..
I still don't feel safe with new men and don't know if I will be able to again!

So last night when we were drinking my straight friend kissed me, I kissed her back. It was intense, she pulled away when she started to feel something.

She has admitted that she fell in love with her best female friend when she was a teenager..
so maybe she is bi-sexual but has just never been with a woman?
Or maybe it's that same thing again and I'm going to start to develop feelings for a straight woman..
or worse we will sleep together and it will ruin our friendship!
I don't know what to do??

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All my life I’ve like girl on girl stuff, but when I researched it the results showed that they’re many girls that like girl on girl stuff that are straight and haven’t ever questioned their sexualtiy. So I went of that and just considered myself straight. (It went like that for the next couple of years, with the occasional what if your not straight? But I just pushed those thoughts away.) But recently a close friend of mine has came out as gay, and I fully supported LGBTQ+ but when he came out he kinda just reminded me that not all people are straight (like I knew but I was kinda like a wake up call you know) and there is a possibility that I’m not. Like I said I fully supported it and him, (it actually brought us closer together) but now I don’t know if I’m actually straight. So I asked him how he knew he was gay and he told me that all his life he has been denying it, and tying to convince himself that he was straight. When he told me that I felt like he had described my life. So I did some more research and eventually found the term Bi-Curious (where you like a girl sexually and would do things but wouldn’t necessarily date a girl) so then I thought I was just Bi-Curious, but then had reliesed that I was ok with dating a trans guy because to the public they were presented as a male. But when thinking about dating a girl I kinda like the idea if they have a good personality but am scared about how the public and family will see me as (they are kinda homophobic) . Any advice *sorry for the long rant* #LGBTQ #confusingthoughts #Bisexual