confusingthoughts

I’m going through a breakdown again as I sometimes do every few years. I have a wonderful healthcare team however at times I think I’ve been missed diagnosed as I have many things going on including chronic pain. I want to commit myself but I’m afraid. I have to have another surgery in a couple of weeks and I just don’t know what to do. I am not healed from the trauma I experienced from the domestic violence situation and due to the pandemic other than regular counseling I cannot get in a specific group for domestic violence survivor in this is troubling for me!!! #lost #hopeless #scared #confusingthoughts

I’m almost 60.... have been going thru massive changes recently, had it all & lost it. Thinks it’s qbpd, no one knows what’s up, they all just think I’m nuts but have no idea about the insanity instability & never ending panic that never stops. My inability to focus, remember, figure stuff out really has me pretty freaked out. Was diagnosed years ago & realize I can no longer get awaywith faking it, have apt with therapist beginning of June. I look good & I’m funny but I’m a mess. Anyone with any ideas on how I can calm down or how to think during periods of utter panic when there’s a bunch of people around at work... being in sales I’m constantly engaging with people, not to mention the people I work with. I moved 3x in 4 months & have new job. Omg... help:) #confusingthoughts

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I know I posted something like this in the past, but I need to know that others have experienced this too. As a sexual abuse survivor, I have been very confused about my sexual orientation. I want to believe that I am straight(I have a boyfriend that I love very much). However I will have days when I question if I am bisexual or not.
I never had the chance to explore my sexuality for myself the way other kids and teens do, perhaps this is why I am confused. I was trying to look up research on the topic and it mainly focused on men that have been sexually abused. I was wondering if the same applies to women. There’s a part of me that tells me I’m straight (I was thinking of dating a female friend of mine but something stopped me) I’m not sure what, maybe it was my true sexuality? Is it normal to be confused? Does the gender of your abuser have an influence (my abuser was a man). Any validation would be appreciated. #SexualAbuse #sexualorientation #confusingthoughts #PTSD

All my life I’ve like girl on girl stuff, but when I researched it the results showed that they’re many girls that like girl on girl stuff that are straight and haven’t ever questioned their sexualtiy. So I went of that and just considered myself straight. (It went like that for the next couple of years, with the occasional what if your not straight? But I just pushed those thoughts away.) But recently a close friend of mine has came out as gay, and I fully supported LGBTQ+ but when he came out he kinda just reminded me that not all people are straight (like I knew but I was kinda like a wake up call you know) and there is a possibility that I’m not. Like I said I fully supported it and him, (it actually brought us closer together) but now I don’t know if I’m actually straight. So I asked him how he knew he was gay and he told me that all his life he has been denying it, and tying to convince himself that he was straight. When he told me that I felt like he had described my life. So I did some more research and eventually found the term Bi-Curious (where you like a girl sexually and would do things but wouldn’t necessarily date a girl) so then I thought I was just Bi-Curious, but then had reliesed that I was ok with dating a trans guy because to the public they were presented as a male. But when thinking about dating a girl I kinda like the idea if they have a good personality but am scared about how the public and family will see me as (they are kinda homophobic) . Any advice *sorry for the long rant* #LGBTQ #confusingthoughts #Bisexual

I find myself often wondering what my own feelings are. I’ll be laying in bed and start feeling anxious but I can’t decide on what it is I’m worried about and then all of a sudden it’s like I can’t do anything? it’s like I can’t make out a thought in my head. I’m blank. I can feel all my feelings at once yet absolutely nothing. and I can’t say anything either. anxiety attacks maybe? they’ve been getting more and more frequent for me.