learntoloveyourself

#EatingDisorder #learntoloveyourself #Recovery

I remember when I was very young feeling so much larger than my friends when I was extremely petite. Always frustrated, not feeling any worth. When I was 14, I got food poisoning and lost weight. From there on I blamed my developing eating disorder on not being able to gain that weight back. Lying was easier than admitting that I had a problem. When I was 24 I came close to dying from #Anorexia It's hard to love something you hate. Something that people don’t understand because in their opinion you look good, you look fine. If you are like me, 32 years old, and still accepting your beauty and body, you aren’t alone. In a realness, #BodyPositivity is so much harder than they make it seem. Let’s learn to love ourselves for where we are at, not where we will be in 5 months or 2 years.

Sometimes you just have to let go...and walk away.

It can feel excruciating, and take time to heal, but sometimes it's best to walk away from destructive family and friends who don't uplift, support or encourage you. Who gaslight you or play narcissistic games to achieve their end goal.

It can be a parent, partner, sibling, cousin or friend...

Whoever's holding you back, triggering you or making you feel less than you are worth, walk away.

It's time for you to flourish.

The pain will end and you will be in a much better place, even though it doesn't feel like it right now.

People can change if they truly want to, and perhaps this action will help jolt that person into becoming someone more deserving and understanding of your friendship and love.

#bethebestversionofyou
#letthemgo
#youknowwhatsbest
#changebringschange
#selfgrowthjourney
#learntoloveyourself
#Bekindtoyourself
#ucandounlimitedchange

I decided to let you in,
I made a choice to look past my gut feelings.
I knew you would hurt me...
But I let you in anyways.
You made my stomach flip, gave my heart butterflies, made my soul light up.
I truly laughed for the first time in years.
I listened to music, laying on the bed with you, feeling like a teenager.
That's when I knew...
I knew it would be pain like a first love's.
But I let you in anyways.
I opened my heart, my house and my legs for you.
I let myself feel alive for a few short minutes.
Then it came... You hurt me.
My heart hadnt felt pain like this, lose like this or that deep sinking feeling in years.
But there it was & I'm the one who let it in.
I decided to let you Back in anyways.
The pain made me feel alive.
This is what I get for picking New & Exciting over Myself & My Needs.
To my heart IM Sorry, I put you out there to get hurt.... I'm Sorry I'm the one who let the hurt in again.
But now I can feel alive. Again.
I let the pain in and now I can grow. Again.
I knew you would hurt me,
But I let you in anyways & I Thank You for helping me grow and feel alive.
Again. #