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The Lies Depression Tells Me
Saturday was a bad day for me at work. I was overwhelmed and struggling. When I counted my tips at the end of the night I was stunned and confused by how little I made. The next morning I served in my church's children's church for the last time. As much as I love working with the children I no longer can mentally/emotionally handle it anymore. The 1 & 1/2 hours consisted of a boy having a meltdown and being uncontrollable while trying to teach 7 other children. I had hoped that my last Sunday serving there would end on a high note but alas.
From Sunday on I have felt defeated. The lies (automatic thoughts) that depression tells me came in and are trying to take up residence. They have neither won nor lost as the battle rages on. Fighting is exhausting. But fight we must!
My heart is in anguish within me,
And horror has overwhelmed me.
Fear and trembling come upon me,
And horror has overwhelmed me...
As for me, I shall call upon God,
And the LORD will save me.
Evening and morning and at noon,
And He will hear my voice.
He will redeem my soul in peace
from the battle which is against me,
For they are many who strive with me.
Psalm 55:4-5, 16-18
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