I've been living with my grandma for the past six months. It was supposed to be 2-3 months, but then #COVID19 hit and everything changed. Now I feel like it's finally possible to move out on my own. Based on my past experiences, I thought I would just look up a few rental ads, go view a place, sign a contract and move in.

Apparently, while I've been out of the country for the past six years, things have changed. Every decent place has at least twenty people vying for it and trying to find something within my budget is nearly impossible. What was supposed to be a good move for my mental health is now spiking my anxiety.

In the past six months, I have:
- tried to finish my masters degree and let it go
- tried to find a permanent, full-time job and given up
- tried to find a place to call home and struck out

I know that none of these situations are final, but I feel like I'm just cycling through them and never actully moving ahead in any area of my life. The whole point of moving back to my country was to get some stability and it's been anything but.

What am I even doing with my life? I'm in my mid-30s with half a masters degree, a very scattered and random #Career , no savings, living with my grandma, working part time for minimum wage, #single , #lonely , #anxious , #depressed

What should I do?

#lifedirection #Depression #Anxiety #transitions