Whirlwind
After being sick for months I’ve finally gotten diagnosed with #nutcrackersyndrome #MaythurnerSyndrome and #POTS and I still have more testing next week. I’m grateful for being able to take medical leave from work but I’m terrified to go back. In all honesty I don’t think I’ll be able to go back to working full time anytime soon. Which terrifies me. My grandma pointed out that I’m really smart and that perhaps this is showing me I need to just focus on my education and find something low impact to do part time. But I start spiraling. Where will I get insurance? How will I make enough money to cover rent and needs? What if I can’t handle it? I’ve gone from being a super busy 26 year old to basically being home bound. I am at a crossroads and I don’t know what to do. My anxiety is through the roof. I just don’t know what to do. So I end up just sitting and watching tv because I’m overwhelmed. These new diagnoses in addition to having #Endometriosis #InterstitialCystitis #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #Fibromyaliga is just too much. I’m just in a whirlwind and I can’t get out.