Music

Woke up with my hips hurting. So about 45 minutes ago I ate a gummy. My hips feel better but my right leg is very ouchy. I'm fairly certain it's sciatica. I just gotta relax and let the gummy to work it's magic...
I found 2 musicians yesterday that I adore. I found both on FB reels. One is named Spencer Sutherland. He's a modern 70s slice of awesome pie. And then there's Marcin. He's a Polish guitarist. His music is just amazing. I highly recommend both.
would anyone like to share music with me?
#BackPain #Music

I don't want a piece of that
'Cause I know there's no peace in that
I can tell myself a thousand times
But you can make a toy of me
And I'll agree that maybe I just couldn't see…that there ain't nothing wrong with us at all

But you keep on playing games with me, games
And you always gotta play with me, play
And I hate the way you break and you take and you tear me down
Boy, you really oughta knock it off right now
Games with me, games
And you always gotta play with me, play
And I hate the way you break and you take and you tear me down
Boy, you really oughta knock it off right now

I know I should trust my gut
'Cause I know that there's somethin' up
I just hate the place that that path would lead me down
And you say that there's nothing wrong
And I long to take you at your word, but then
All along you're hiding even when you're by my side
….

You're lying
And everything with you is trying
And I don't wanna keep on crying
If I'm the only one
And I've been telling everyone I'm fine
But I feel like I lost my mind, oh
Am I the only one?

If I knew it all along
Was I wrong to take you at your word? But then
All along you're hiding even when you're by my side

And you keep on playing games with me, games
And you always gotta play with me, play
And I hate the way you break and you take and you tear me down
Boy, you really oughta knock it off right now
Games with me, games
And you always gotta play with me, play
And I hate the way you break and you take and you tear me down
Boy, you really oughta knock it off right now

#Music #artastherapy #Relationships #CPTSD #Grief

I'm just having one of those days
Where I wake up to the sound of rain
With this pressure on my chest that I can't make go away
Every minute's gettin' longer
Waves are hittin' harder
Wish that I was stronger than the pain

Instead of runnin' away when it feels like
Everything's a landslide
Pull yourself together, this can't go on forever
I've been talkin' to myself to help the time go by
Maybe I can figure out a reason why

Four in the mornin', my room starts turnin'
My eyes are burnin' with the light, I'm wide-awake
But I feel so tired, I've been runnin' for miles
And I'm still so far away
I will pull myself together
But right now
I'm just havin' one of those days
…

I'm just havin' one of those days
With my headspace feelin' like a car chase
Bouncin' off of walls, crashin' because I'm always
Living at a pace that was set for me
Now, the clean-up crew and the powers that be
Trying to heal a world with anxiety

Four in the mornin', my room starts turnin'
My eyes are burnin' with the light, I'm wide-awake
But I feel so tired, I've been runnin' for miles
And I'm still so far away
I will pull myself together
But right now
I'm just havin' one of those days
…

Scream if you gotta
Be weak if you wanna
The strength is in the spirit
Nobody can tear it away
Yeah, it's okay to feel this way

You're just havin' one of those days
…

#Music #artastherapy #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #c-PTSD

It's been a while, I'm not who I was before
You look surprised, your words don't burn me anymore
Been meaning to tell you, but I guess it's clear to see
Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kind of me
Can't be bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Careful with your ego, he's the one that we should blame
Had to grab my heart back
God knows something had to change
I thought that you'd be happy
I found the one thing I need
Why you mad?, it’s just the brand new kind of me

It took a long long time to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
It took one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, don't be surprised

If I talk a little louder
If I speak up when you're wrong
If I walk a little taller
I've been under you too long
If you notice that I'm different
Don't take it personally
Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kind of me
It ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Oh, it took a long long road to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
I've taken one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, oh see you look surprised

Hey, if you were a friend, you’d want to get to know me again
If you were worth the while
You'd be happy to see me smile
I'm not expecting sorry
I'm too busy finding myself
I got this
I found me, I found me

I don't need your opinion
I'm not waiting for your okay
I'll never be perfect, but at least now I'm brave
Now, my heart is open
I can finally breathe
Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kind of free
That ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of me
Don't be mad, it's a brand new time for me

#Music #artastherapy #Relationships #RelationshipWithSelf #MentalHealth #Trauma #Autism #ADHD

You're fire, you're proud
but you're cold when it counts
It’s open and shut
You can say you love me but
words ain't enough

You want me, you say
but then you turn away
And I'm pressing my luck
You can say you love me but
words ain't enough

Cut myself into pieces easy to chew
Carve me up into someone you'd like to choose,
till I'm only pieces of you
So you can say you love me but
words ain't enough
So you can say you love me but
words ain't enough

#Music #artastherapy #Relationships

Something so benign from me
Construed as cruelty
Such a difference between
Who I am and who you see
Conclusions you come to of me
Routinely incorrect
I don't know who you're talking to
With such….disrespect

This sh*t’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what's in my head
You say one thing, do another
And argue that's not what you did
Your way's making me mental
How you filter askewed, interpret?
I swear you won't be happy 'til
I am bound in a straitjacket

Talking with you's like
Talking to a sieve that can't hear me
You fight me tooth and nail
To disavow what's happening
Your resistance to a mirror
I feel screaming from your body
One day I'll introduce myself
And you'll see you've not yet met me

This sh*t’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what's in my head
You say one thing, do another
And argue that's not what you did
Your way's making me mental
How you filter askewed, interpret?
I swear you won't be happy 'til
I am bound in a straitjacket

Grand dissonance
The strings of my puppet are cut
The end of an era
Your dis-crediting has lost my consent

This sh*t’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what's in my head
You say one thing, do another
And argue that's not what you did
Your way's making me mental
How you filter askewed, interpret?
I swear you won't be happy 'til
I am bound in a straitjacket

#Music #artastherapy #Relationships

• Bigger Man- Joy Oladokun & Maren Morris
• Deeper Well- Kacey Musgraves
• Brand New Me- Alicia Keys
• Still Can’t…- The Cranberries
• Ignorance- Paramore
• Find Yourself- Lukas Nelson & Promise of the Real
• Best Part- MILCK
• Bad Life- Sigrid & Bring Me the Horizon
• Now- Paramore
• Daffodil Lament- The Cranberries

#artastherapy #Music #Relationships #Autism #ADHD #Anxiety #MentalHealth #c-PTSD

…
…I'm saying goodbye to the people that I feel are real good at wasting my time
No regrets, baby, I just think that maybe
You go your way and I'll go mine
It's been a real good time
But you've got dark energy, something I can't unsee
And I've got to take care of myself
I've found a deeper well
…
.., I'm getting rid of the habits that I feel
Are real good at wasting my time
No regrets, baby, I just think that maybe
It's natural when things lose their shine
So other things can glow
I've gotten older, now I know
How to take care of myself
I've found a deeper well

When I was growing up
We had what we needed, shoes on our feet
But the world was as flat as a plate
And that’s okay
The things I was taught only took me so far
Had to figure the rest out myself
And then I found
I found a deeper well

#Music #Lyrics #artastherapy #MentalHealth