Music

I'm just having one of those days
Where I wake up to the sound of rain
With this pressure on my chest that I can't make go away
Every minute's gettin' longer
Waves are hittin' harder
Wish that I was stronger than the pain

Instead of runnin' away when it feels like
Everything's a landslide
Pull yourself together, this can't go on forever
I've been talkin' to myself to help the time go by
Maybe I can figure out a reason why

Four in the mornin', my room starts turnin'
My eyes are burnin' with the light, I'm wide-awake
But I feel so tired, I've been runnin' for miles
And I'm still so far away
I will pull myself together
But right now
I'm just havin' one of those days
…

I'm just havin' one of those days
With my headspace feelin' like a car chase
Bouncin' off of walls, crashin' because I'm always
Living at a pace that was set for me
Now, the clean-up crew and the powers that be
Trying to heal a world with anxiety

Four in the mornin', my room starts turnin'
My eyes are burnin' with the light, I'm wide-awake
But I feel so tired, I've been runnin' for miles
And I'm still so far away
I will pull myself together
But right now
I'm just havin' one of those days
…

Scream if you gotta
Be weak if you wanna
The strength is in the spirit
Nobody can tear it away
Yeah, it's okay to feel this way

You're just havin' one of those days
…

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It's been a while, I'm not who I was before
You look surprised, your words don't burn me anymore
Been meaning to tell you, but I guess it's clear to see
Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kind of me
Can't be bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Careful with your ego, he's the one that we should blame
Had to grab my heart back
God knows something had to change
I thought that you'd be happy
I found the one thing I need
Why you mad?, it’s just the brand new kind of me

It took a long long time to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
It took one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, don't be surprised

If I talk a little louder
If I speak up when you're wrong
If I walk a little taller
I've been under you too long
If you notice that I'm different
Don't take it personally
Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kind of me
It ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of free

Oh, it took a long long road to get here
It took a brave, brave girl to try
I've taken one too many excuses, one too many lies
Don't be surprised, oh see you look surprised

Hey, if you were a friend, you’d want to get to know me again
If you were worth the while
You'd be happy to see me smile
I'm not expecting sorry
I'm too busy finding myself
I got this
I found me, I found me

I don't need your opinion
I'm not waiting for your okay
I'll never be perfect, but at least now I'm brave
Now, my heart is open
I can finally breathe
Don't be mad, it's just a brand new kind of free
That ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of me
Don't be mad, it's a brand new time for me

#Music #artastherapy #Relationships #RelationshipWithSelf #MentalHealth #Trauma #Autism #ADHD

You're fire, you're proud
but you're cold when it counts
It’s open and shut
You can say you love me but
words ain't enough

You want me, you say
but then you turn away
And I'm pressing my luck
You can say you love me but
words ain't enough

Cut myself into pieces easy to chew
Carve me up into someone you'd like to choose,
till I'm only pieces of you
So you can say you love me but
words ain't enough
So you can say you love me but
words ain't enough

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Something so benign from me
Construed as cruelty
Such a difference between
Who I am and who you see
Conclusions you come to of me
Routinely incorrect
I don't know who you're talking to
With such….disrespect

This sh*t’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what's in my head
You say one thing, do another
And argue that's not what you did
Your way's making me mental
How you filter askewed, interpret?
I swear you won't be happy 'til
I am bound in a straitjacket

Talking with you's like
Talking to a sieve that can't hear me
You fight me tooth and nail
To disavow what's happening
Your resistance to a mirror
I feel screaming from your body
One day I'll introduce myself
And you'll see you've not yet met me

This sh*t’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what's in my head
You say one thing, do another
And argue that's not what you did
Your way's making me mental
How you filter askewed, interpret?
I swear you won't be happy 'til
I am bound in a straitjacket

Grand dissonance
The strings of my puppet are cut
The end of an era
Your dis-crediting has lost my consent

This sh*t’s making me crazy
The way you nullify what's in my head
You say one thing, do another
And argue that's not what you did
Your way's making me mental
How you filter askewed, interpret?
I swear you won't be happy 'til
I am bound in a straitjacket

#Music #artastherapy #Relationships

• Bigger Man- Joy Oladokun & Maren Morris
• Deeper Well- Kacey Musgraves
• Brand New Me- Alicia Keys
• Still Can’t…- The Cranberries
• Ignorance- Paramore
• Find Yourself- Lukas Nelson & Promise of the Real
• Best Part- MILCK
• Bad Life- Sigrid & Bring Me the Horizon
• Now- Paramore
• Daffodil Lament- The Cranberries

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…
…I'm saying goodbye to the people that I feel are real good at wasting my time
No regrets, baby, I just think that maybe
You go your way and I'll go mine
It's been a real good time
But you've got dark energy, something I can't unsee
And I've got to take care of myself
I've found a deeper well
…
.., I'm getting rid of the habits that I feel
Are real good at wasting my time
No regrets, baby, I just think that maybe
It's natural when things lose their shine
So other things can glow
I've gotten older, now I know
How to take care of myself
I've found a deeper well

When I was growing up
We had what we needed, shoes on our feet
But the world was as flat as a plate
And that’s okay
The things I was taught only took me so far
Had to figure the rest out myself
And then I found
I found a deeper well

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(Reworked version of “The Architect” by Kacey Musgraves)

Even something as small as each creature
Small but quite complex
Wondrous, divine
All different designs
Can I speak with the architect?

Just look at all of the people
Did we get here by grand design?
Were we devised?
Are we all a surprise
formed by random, chaotic things?

Are we thought out at all,
or paint thrown at a wall?
Is there anything that You regret?
I don’t understand
Are there blueprints or plans?
Can I speak to the architect?

Sometimes, I think about me
And wish I could make a request
Can I pray stuff away?
Am I shapeable clay?
Or is this as good as it gets?

One day you think that you’ve got this
This thing that we all call life
Then a wind from behind
carries ember and ash
and it burns your world to the ground

Is it thought out at all,
or just pain on a wall?
Is there anything that You regret?
I don’t understand
Are there blueprints or plans
Can I speak with the architect?

Sometimes, I think I’m too broken,
and maybe too hard to love
I’m in a strange state
and stuck in bad places
Can You help me make sense of it?

Does it happen by chance?
Is it all happenstance?
Do we have any say in this mess?
Is it too late to make some of it better?
Can I speak to the architect?

This life that we make is it random or fate?
Are we our own architects?
Is there an architect?

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Sometimes your body takes a hit and you need to step away. Playing music in the car helps clear the mind, but sometimes we need silence.

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I create music that people can relate to (hopefully) so let's see how you like it.

Hang In There
We Got This!

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