Music

“I will send you $100 this Friday.”

It took 118 days, but he texted me directly this morning. He owes me a lot more than $100. I wanted to say more to him—how are you, are you feeling better, what’s new. I liked the message instead.

I came back from a trip without him where I stood, alone, in front of professionals and a camera. I conducted my grief out. I shared with my therapist that grief has transformed my conducting. I’m defensive. I’m emotional. I’m angry.

The professionals this weekend included my mentors. They helped me be genuine. To not smile unless I feel like it. To relax and not feel like I have to defend myself.

I’m trying. This is what my grief looks like. It hides itself well.

#Grief #breakup #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Music

I'm just curious. What is your current repeat song? My current repeat song is Aawake at Night by half alive. #neurodivergent #neurodiverse #Neurodiversity #NeurodevelopmentalDisorders #IntellectualDisability #IntellectualDisabilities #LearningDisability #LlearningDisabilities #Disability #ADHD #audhd #Autism #AutismSpectrumDisorder #AspergersSyndrome #Aspergers #SensoryProcessingDisorder #Anxiety #Depression #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #MentalHealth #Spoonie #MightyTogether #CheckInWithMe #DistractMe #Dyslexia #Dyscalculia #Dysgraphia #Dyspraxia #TouretteSyndrome #Hyperlexia #RejectionSensitiveDysphoria #RSD #Music

Wishing you all a very blessed weekend 🤗
I hope you’re all doing well today. I wrote an album a few months ago about my experience with Bipolar Disorder and I have attached a link to it below. I would be grateful if you could take the time to have a look at it and share your thoughts and ideas on it. If you relate to any of my experiences or have any different experiences or patterns that you feel you would be comfortable sharing. Thank you for taking the time to read this post and I look forward to hearing from you all as always 👌
Finished My Album 💿
#MightyTogether #MentalHealth

I have had this song on repeat this week. I hope you listen to it free on YouTube or however, but a video with the lyrics is even more helpful.
I hope these lyrics with his voice on this particular song helps wash away some of your pain too.
Try consciously breathing in an out while you listen to his resounding lyrics:

Take my mind
And take my pain
Like an empty bottle takes the rain
And heal, heal, heal, heal

And take my past
And take my sins
Like an empty sail takes the wind
And heal, heal, heal, heal

And tell me some things last
And tell me some things last

And take a heart
And take a hand
Like an ocean takes the dirty sand
And heal, heal, heal, heal

And take my mind
And take my pain
Like an empty bottle takes the rain
And heal, heal, heal, heal

And tell me some things last
And tell me some things last
And tell me some things last
And tell me some things last

#Pain #Trauma #heal #PTSD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder #MajorDepression #ClinicalDepression #Fatigue #ChronicIllness #Disability #TRD #TreatmentresistantDepression #ChronicFatigue #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #MoodDisorders #PersistentDepressiveDisorder #DepressiveDisorders #Grief #Songs #Lyrics #MentalHealth #MightyMusic #musictherapy #Music #BipolarDepression

Just before con, I had earned a reward for doing my chores on the app we use called obedience. One reward is an item from my Amazon wishlist. She surprises me with something special. She got me a pair of Bluetooth noise cancelling headphones! They're perfect. So comfortable, can't hear shit except for the music. I missed art group today but I'm hoping to go next month and I'll bring these with me. I can listen to my music without bothering my caregiver. Flutter is so good to me.

#selfcare #Music #Relationships

This is a song or poem that I have written about Living with Bipolar Disorder. I hope you like it 👍
#MightyTogether