New Zealand

Okay so I started seeing this chick I met through a friend which like most people my age it all happened because we were drunk. And we ended up seeing each other the next day and stuff and things seemed alright. She has a kid which didn’t bother me too much but I am someone who doesn’t like normality or schedules or same shit different day. I want to travel and before covid I was over in USA living my dream working for the boss mouse. Although a couple weeks ago I mentioned my friend moving to turkey and she said how “why would they leave NZ is the safest place” and I obviously didn’t like what she meant. We might be safe but I don’t want to stay forever. I said to her I don’t want a relationship with someone who doesn’t love travel or new things and then she got all upset and saying she really liked me and I made her happy. She doesn’t know anything about me and this has hardly been going very long and I felt pressured to keep going along for no reason. But I don’t see the e point in this. Am I a jerk for keeping it going even though I tried to stop it and didn’t work? I work with her best mate and last day that job is tomorrow and I’m friends with her too so I don’t want beef but I feel drained trying to keep this illusion of hers going but why keep trying this when some point I’m just gonna be like “cool bye I’m leaving for good” am I in the wrong for letting this happen? I don’t know what to do. #COVID #Travel #relationship #aita #confused #Guilt #BPD #Anxiety #NewZealand

So I dont know what the mental health support is like in everyone else's part of the world but here in New Zealand it is an absolute joke. I have been with the crisis team here in my region since june and i feel like nothing has improved, last week i nearly crashed my car and when i called the crisis team who are supposed to help they just said "it sounds like you are having a panic attack just have a rest" it took a security guard driving past to call for help and me taken to the hospital to talk to the crisis team and be asked a bunch of questions and be told i havent done enough to help myself??? i nearly tried to die and they say im not doig enough?? what is wrong with them. They were then like "what do you want us to do" i dnt know because that is your job. The next day after i am home i get a call from the crisis team saying they gonna follow up with support, all they did was call and when i missed their call they didnt try call again they just text me. I had to call them later and say what the hell is this support you are doing nothing and today they were supposed to call but didnt so i called back and over an hour ago they said they will call me in 5 to 10 minutes. how can they consider themselves crisis support if every single day i live a life or death situation in my head 24/7 but dont see it as very urgent. This is insanity, me and my flatmate both ripped into them on the phone and kept getting "yep we hear you" clearly you dont because you do nothing till its too late and just ask pointless questions and do nothing to help me. I cant believe i get told to call them when i need to and then get told the stupidest things ever. I am desperately calling for help and they act like its a small setback in life.

#Depression #Crisis #Helpline #NewZealand #suicidal #help

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