My recovery is so slow, but now that I am feeling a little better I keep thinking I should be able to will myself better the rest of the way.
Or maybe I'm not really sick -- if I would just get up and get moving I'd be fine. Or if I just lost weight I'd be fine. That I'm a lazy sponge forcing my family to take care of me instead of taking care of myself & pulling my own weight Intellectually I know these thoughts are not true but emotionally I am losing this battle right now.
I've fought hyperparathyroidism for close ton5 years now - January 5, 2021 I had 3 of my 4 parathyroid glands removed because all 3 had tumors on them. Thankfully one only needs half of a gland for health. I have double that! (Thankfully all the tumors were benign.) Since surgery it has been a Hormone storm as my system rebalances.
There have been 3 out-of-State trips I needed to make, one of them by myself. The Fibromyalgia Monster that invaded my body flares after travel. The changing pressures & weather of Spring flares both the FibroMonster and migraines.
I am trying to keep up on my PT exercises to stave off spinal surgery because arthritis is narrowing nerve pathways -- yet can't manage all the exercises each day.
Yet I feel that if I am not exhausted, wrung out & at the end of my energy, I've just been lazy today.
Any ideas to help me change this "stinkin' thinkin'"?
#GERD #diverticulosis #IBS -D #Intestinal Dysmotility #Undifferentiated Eating Disorder
#Highly Sensitive Person
#RAISED in a low-grade Cult