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I’ve never had a good relationship. I mean, sure we had good times but if you looked deeply into it, the bpd, depression, anxiety, and ptsd would always get in the way. More so the bpd it seems. No man wants to love me, they just don’t want to be alone. I’ve been with my fiancé for about 4 years now. We have two kids. One is his from another marriage, which the mother is not in the picture and she lives with us. She’s eleven and I love her like my own. We always have one of our own, she’s two now. I love my daughter more than I could EVER describe, but having her with him has been hard. Especially with me having bpd. He doesn’t have a real job, so we live with his alcoholic mother who puts so much stress on us all. Which constantly triggers me. He’s such an angry man now. Very easily set off. It’s so hard to be with him and I don’t know what to do anymore. Sure we have good times but it’s more bad than good. I see men love their women or whatever and I’m. SO jealous and I hate that about myself. I just wish I didn’t or he didn’t make me feel like a burden. Like I’m hard to be with. It’s breaking me down.
