Selfpreservation

Just breath…I tell myself. I lose myself in thoughts of everything that has happened in the past several months and the pain I feel over losing my Sister in March. I take frontage roads and admire the beauty of my world. I tell myself to breath in and try to let these emotions rest. I know I have the power inside me to heal my mind, to find ways to calm my soul and still acknowledge the struggles that rage inside of me. I know that Im not alone, although so many times I feel lonely. And so, I Just Breath…

I am currently homebound due to excrutiating nerve pain throught back/neck/arms. This prevents me from driving, which prevents me from visiting close friends whom i love and trust. I'm homebound with an emotionally abusive husband. All of the hastags preceding this might give you an idea of areas that are vital to be intuned with; depressing & self loathing are creeping in; not fun but i'm aware of WHY they are creeping in. I need to think outside my own box; create doable concrete goals with visual aid of checklists to see how i'm doing. (Read books A,B,C ea. 30mins in AM & 30 minsPM; each day work on art therapy; explore!; use different mediums; the 700lb. phone!;answer phone 1x/return one missed call, etc. #successbringssuccess
I often tell people I 'do the work' as best i can. #progressnotperfection
It's a bless to have learned to break down the what/why/how ; to get to the root of depression, sadness creeping in. #Selfpreservation
My nerve pain will end soon;in the meantime i'll try to focus on my "in house goals ."

This has me in a spin. I feel like I’ve had the wind knocked out of me #MentalHealth #Selfpreservation #empath