empath

Sometimes I feel like I've been forgotten. I've always been antisocial and socially awkward, so naturally id usually say no to a dinner invite or social gathering. I also live with depression, anxiety, chronic pain, have LOTS of issues I believe to be on the spectrum and neurological disorder I'll have to take medication for the rest of my life. But I'm also an empath. It's like my family and the few friends I have just forget about the other things and think, oh she's just antisocial so she wouldn't wanna be involved. Yet I feel everyone's sadness, grief, anxiety, etc and it's so overwhelming sometimes to the point that it hurts. Anyone else have the same problems? #empath #Anxiety #depre

Hello everyone.. thanks for taking the time to read.. I just want to say I struggle everyday to feel loved and accepted in this world and in my family even though I love everyone I meet.. I hope you know you are loved and maybe people should focus more on giving it and not expect to receive it bc there aren’t alot of empathic people out there who even understand they are hurting you. That skill is literally not in their deck of cards.. so they don’t know how to give back what you are giving##empath #lonely #Depression #SuicidalIdeation

There is a nature trail by my home called the Trolley Trail. It is a beautiful trail that many of our townspeople enjoy. I also use the Trolley Trail but for me it is far more than a pleasant stroll - it is my secret escape from the sometimes painful world - my train to Hogwarts, my wardrobe to Narnia...

Living with anxiety and an overactive sensory system can sometimes feel like a curse. I am regularly anxious and in addition it sometimes feels like everything is too loud, too bright, too...EVERYTHING.

When I get overwhelmed or I just need a break from the world - I enter my secret magical portal - the start of the Trolley Trail and before I know it- I am enveloped in beautiful, tranquil nature and all those overactive senses which usually are honed in on amplifying my anxiety become focused on experiencing all the cool natural doings on the Trail.

My hearing which is usually diligently scanning to see who may be talking about me now focuses on all the small animals rustling about in the leaves on either side of the Trail and the calls of the many birds who make this place their home. My focus shifts from diligently looking for danger to the small frog who has decided to take a break in the middle of the trail. Instead of scanning for mistakes in my work - I am scanning the open areas of the trail looking for the deer family that regularly will stop and snack on grass in the open patches of land along the trail. All of my usual sensory overload becomes tuned into the sights and sounds of trail - sights and sounds that may not be perceived by the person without an highly developed sensory system and for a short while my overactive system feels like a gift instead of a curse.

And so I would say to anyone out there grappling with anxiety or an oversensitive sensory system- go find your own natural escape. It can be a nature trail, a lake or beach or even your own driveway. Take a minute to inhale the fresh air and feel the warm sun on your face and get in touch with all of the natural beauty that is literally outside your front door. The inner peace that you gain from using nature as your escape can be just a life changing as a magical school or enchanted wardrobe...

#Anxiety #OCD #empath #Anxiety coping techniques

° " So Today My Boss K8nda Made Me Stress Out. Because Everytime I Walk Into This Store... Everyone Is Ethier Mad And Super Stressed Out. All The Time... And I Feel Every Emotional Drain All Day. I Got Into It With My Boss. Because She Wouldn't Stop Telling Me To Go Clean The Patio Area. I Get Told This 20 Time's A Day. And It's Annoying Like Once Is Enough... Bit She's Going To Keep Doing It Anyway's.. And Now I Have A Co-worker Training To Become The New Shift Leader. And Now He's On Me Too.. Like Wtf People It's Not My Fault That You Guy's Can't Get Your Store Together. Like The Damn Patio Was Spotless All Day. While I Did Cashiering Too. Like This Lady Has No Confidence In Me Whatsoever... I Can't Be At Two Place's. I Clean Thing's Well. So I Don't Get It... They All Need Better Commutation Skill's And That's What This Store Has. And They Sit There And Blame The Cashier. For Not Commutating. I Really Hate Human's For Real. " ° #Thought 's ▪︎ Skaoi Kvitravn ▪︎

Lost parts of me along the way

I didn’t know why

Blamed it on a lot of things

Gave myself a try

I saw things that weren’t there

Made plans then didn’t care

I thought maybe life was just unfair

Held it in as best I could

But it clawed out just as it should

Devoured me and spit me out

Filled my brain with endless doubt

Building and wrecking

Always cleaning messes

Why did I have to get this?

Yet there’s magic in the madness

Joy in the sadness

Hope in the tragic

After all empathic

#Poetry #Bipolar #empath