I’m Evolving Back into Myself
So… I am in an extremely stressful time in my life… moving my household and my disabled husband across the country without any help… on top of having major depressive disorder, anxiety and fibromyalgia. It is very challenging and just today I fell flat on my virtual face. But in between moments of exhaustion, dripping sweat, tears and emotional eating I am getting it done. How? Why? Because I discovered that deciding to do this for ME, this moving towards a better life is so liberating! And energizing! And scary! And wonderful! I’m choosing to move beyond the reach of unsupportive family members and toward a lifestyle of my choosing. I am stripping my belongings down to just what I need and what brings me joy. What a great antidote to the apathy problem I left behind.
When I was trying to avoid all of the pain and self-loathing my life was made of and hiding in my Nest all the time, being where I am now—moving in 50 days— felt as impossible as pigs flying. But after a slow start I watched a video that helped me recognize that I really am a legitimate Child of the Universe and have the power to protect my peace. Then I discovered actual joy again through mindful meditation… and I started gaining momentum. It became an upward spiral. Now pigs are flying! You can do this too. Start with the video, linked below:
(If the link has expired, just go to YouTube and run a search for “Mooji invitation to freedom”.)