survival

So… I am in an extremely stressful time in my life… moving my household and my disabled husband across the country without any help… on top of having major depressive disorder, anxiety and fibromyalgia. It is very challenging and just today I fell flat on my virtual face. But in between moments of exhaustion, dripping sweat, tears and emotional eating I am getting it done. How? Why? Because I discovered that deciding to do this for ME, this moving towards a better life is so liberating! And energizing! And scary! And wonderful! I’m choosing to move beyond the reach of unsupportive family members and toward a lifestyle of my choosing. I am stripping my belongings down to just what I need and what brings me joy. What a great antidote to the apathy problem I left behind.

When I was trying to avoid all of the pain and self-loathing my life was made of and hiding in my Nest all the time, being where I am now—moving in 50 days— felt as impossible as pigs flying. But after a slow start I watched a video that helped me recognize that I really am a legitimate Child of the Universe and have the power to protect my peace. Then I discovered actual joy again through mindful meditation… and I started gaining momentum. It became an upward spiral. Now pigs are flying! You can do this too. Start with the video, linked below:

youtu.be/ptcINj_7tcl
(If the link has expired, just go to YouTube and run a search for “Mooji invitation to freedom”.)

#apathy #Depression #Anxiety #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #survival #PTSD #Abuse #Mindfulness #Meditation

I searched for a MLK quote that meant the most to me, and I remembered back when I couldn’t walk, when my Neuropathy had me bedridden and told I may never walk again…this quote gave me hope…and encouragement to just hang on. It was a miserable time but I survived and got better to the point where I hiked 4 miles recently and I walk as much as I can …even if it hurts afterwards…I just have to be thankful for the parts of my body that do work!Today I had layers of health problems leaving me sitting on a heating pad, fighting a tough migraine in the dark, my legs burning, and with incessantly skin problems that bothered me all day. I really got close to feeling sorry for myself, told myself I had every right to, but then remembered the times when I’ve had it worst, and I just did the next right thing, one action, one hour, one minute at a time practicing the best self care I could. My head is almost clear after treating it with everything I got and struggling for 3.5 hours. But I will treat my legs for my Neuropathy like I do every night and be thankful that I can walk, and my spirits can soar! Having you all here sharing how you take care of yourself, asking for support & help and offering it to each other…I feel blessed and grateful…and just hope I will sleep well tonight and tomorrow I will take things on again…and just get through another day til my health stabilizes. I know I’ll be just fine…just keep moving forward!

#MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #Disability #IfYouFeelHopeless #Hope #survival #grateful #Blessed

I must remember I’m here, I’m alive

In just over a month this group has grown bigger than I even thought was possible so quickly! WELCOME new members. I'm so glad you found us, and to all of you I extend an invitation for you to check in, share your stories, your struggles, your worries, fears and times of despair...plus things you’ve overcome, successes you've had along the way, and what you’ve learned from your experiences. Please ask for support, respond and support others by sharing how you can relate, ask questions, and reach out if you are in a situation where you don't know what to do. This is a place to share why your stories are similar and empathize with one another!

Are you struggling with a doctor who doesn't understand you, have you recently been surprised with a new diagnosis, are you afraid about a change in medications, are you struggling with a boyfriend/girlfriend, spouse, or family member who doesn't understand what you are going through or is treating you poorly, have you just come out of the hospital and are trying to find your way again. Please share here because there are very likely others who can relate and maybe tell you what has helped them in similar situations.

I know that I myself have struggled in so many ways with physical health and life threatening scenarios, mental health challenges, and I am a recovering addict. I have learned along the way what has helped or hurt me and how different decisions have worked or not worked. I have learned how to be a proactive patient and worked WITH my doctors to make big decisions about my health...but I'm still here and I personally will try to help you in any way I can.

Let's be there for one another, let's learn from each other and make our health challenges a little less scary or overwhelming. Please join me on this path! I'd love to hear from you...Moshe

#Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #Disability #Addiction #AddictionRecovery #HIVAIDS #longtermsurvivor #SurvivorsGuilt #BipolarDisorder #BipolarDepression #Bipolar1Disorder #PeripheralNeuropathy #PTSD #lonely #COVID19 #Migraine #ChronicMigraines #Acceptance #survival #PositiveVibes #Grief #LossOfAParent #FamilyAndFriends #multipleillness #Happiness #Healing #MentalHealthStigma #MentalHealthHero #thankful #grateful

I'm very excited to see people have joined this group. Welcome! I hope you share your stories and we can all support each other, empathize and hopefully share things that are helping us survive!!! I'm sorry it took so long for me to make my first post....The Mighty somehow didn't have me listed as the leader here. It has been a trying time for me recently as I have been dealing with very intense migraines up to 17 migraine days last month. I have these as a residual side effect from Long Haul Covid. I went into the hospital in December having tested positive with Covid a week before and then with 12+ symptoms and after the night in the ER, I spent 4 days in the hospital then two weeks in rehab where I basically had to learn to walk again. After months in home Physical Therapy and then Outpatient PT I have been able to walk 45+ minutes a day and I was working really hard doing exercises and getting my balance and strength back...but then the migraines started and I have had many migraine days in the dark with little or no sound and having exercise take a back seat. I am Bipolar 1 and this scenario has had me very depressed at times, but then I remember how I felt when I first went in the ER, fearful for my life and how I only started feeling better after over a week stuck in a hospital bed depending on nurses who took forever to respond when I pushed the button and my coughing was so harsh I couldn't sleep. I didn't eat anything for over a week and then just jello or soup for awhile...so once again I pushed through and I’m now a survivor again....I say again because I’m what they call a Long Term Survivor having been HIV+ over 35 years. So I've definitely been through a lot and I have a very strong fighting spirit, but after I first survived Covid I thought I'd been through the worst of it....then the migraines have haunted me since then. Although I have had migraines an average of at least every other day, that means I also have had that many migraine free days. Today was one of those and I'm really happy I could go out and even exercise. I'll take the good days... #Bipolar #BipolarDepression #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #HIVAIDS #COVID19 #Migraine #ChronicMigraines #ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #MentalHealth #Acceptance #survival

If you’re comfortable, share your geographical location. If you’re in vet med, please let me know what your experiences with clients have been because I’m curious if they’re the same as mine.

Because some days the greatest accomplishment is surviving