sexual abuse

My mind is replaying that scenario over and over. Part of me is judging myself for not rebelling enough. At one point the wish for physical intimacy was so big. I became his sexual robot.

That's against all logic.

My inner child wants to feel safe. No more reaction out of fear. No more adults that have power over me.

Does anyone resonate with these emotions?

Today I wrote down in detail what happened on 20th May 2005.
All the years I avoided thinking, writing or talking about it.
So today I took a huge step.

I have pinpointed when may have be bipolar when I was growing up. From 8-teens I had anger issues such as lashing out, very irritable and deep depression. Yes it could have been hormones but I think it went deeper than that. 8 yrs old is when my #SexualAbuse started. I pinpointed why I don’t like my birthday. My dad made me a dollhouse and gave it to me on my birthday. My brother used that as to start grooming me. I still celebrate since its me, mom, my son and his girlfriend. #biolar2 #PTSD #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder

So after my therapy session last week my therapist mentioned exposure therapy that we will get into soon. I read this can be for sexual abuse and PTSD. Has anyone tried this? If so was it traumatic? How did it work for you?

Happy New Year! How is everyone? How do you want to work on your mental health this year or even just this month?

#Depression #PTSD #SexualAbuse #Anxiety

If you are a fan of the ID channel there is a show on there The ladies of route 20 in the discretion before the show the mention childhood sexual abuse. I refuse to watch because I am a survivor of it. I do not want to get triggered. Just want to warn you all in case you thought of watching it. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #SexualAbuse

How do I address dating or any form of intimacy if a single kiss causes a flashback that triggers panic?
#SexualAbuse #ChildhoodAbuse #Bipolar #MentalHealth #lonely

I had traumatic experiences as a child, I grew up without understanding how to deal with my emotions in the aftermath of when I could once identify that in fact what happened to me was SA and manipulation into CP. It’s still hard for me to speak out about it to close friends and family members and to not constantly feel like a burden to others when I voice my concerns or opinions about anything. My dream is to be able to talk about what happened without sobbing like a crazy person but I know me being the self-conscious person that I am, It won’t be easy. #SexualAbuse #MentalHealth #Healing

I lie on my bed, listened to meditation and was ready to take a nap. Couldn't concentrate on the meditation. Suddenly memories came to my mind.

It's been 18 years ago that I experienced sexual abuse. But the memories seemed to happen rightnow.....