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I cannot help but feel like a bad partner because I'm worried sick and don't want to be such a bother. I just love this girl so much. Am I a bad girlfriend? #Loveislove #She #Relationships

#I just don't know anymore, I go to Dr tomorrow #L am so tired, of this fight. If it was just me I think I would go home. But I love them more now instead of gown home. So here I stay. My boo comes home from college tomorrow #She goes to Clemson that's right Clemson tigers #and she doesn't give a crap about that. She is studying to be a prenatal nurse/criminal Justice nurse. It is a new field. #She is looking into that, I told her when she left to go to college that when she was done she was going to be a force to be reckoned with. She's going to be a strong woman. And I Instilled in her two take care of herself first and yeah if she wants to find a person she loves, find them but she will always be able #to take care of herself #

Am struggling at moment badly and my eldest daughter who I felt was my soul mate doesn’t live at home ! Has come back for 9 days and I can feel the atmosphere # is not right! ##She has just said I am so draining to be around this has literally broken me I am meant to be her mum not the other way round

My mother died March 19th at 9:20am 2020 and I loved my mom but she kept me in a abusive home life until I was 18 years old and she was only married to my biological father for 19 years. I suffered my entire childhood what there was of it. My daddy abused her by slapping her around with me being 2 years old trying to come between them my mom said I would try to distract him to something else so he wouldn’t hit her. I can remember all the way back to when I was 9 months old and I was trying to learn to walk my daddy was in the shower of our tiny apartment and I was holding on to the toilet and I moved one hand and placed it on the tub and when I went to move the other hand the one on the tub slipped I guess because the tub was wet and I hit my chin on the tub but I can remember my daddy showing no concern except to laugh as I was crying and bleeding. My entire childhood was a nightmare my daddy never loved me I got in the way of his master plan which he told me as he drank his half gallon of cheap vodka. He told me he never wanted to marry my mom and he was going to get married and stay married for 6 months and say it didn’t work out and leave my mom. Well I put a glitch in his plans my mom was pregnant in 3 months and he was not happy even though he was the one that couldn’t keep it in his pants. My mom told him she didn’t have the proper birth control but that didn’t stop him and he blamed it on her. My daddy was a real piece of work and he blamed me for being made and that was totally out of my control. All the abuse I suffered my mom stood by and watched and the sexual abuse she didn’t know about till I was grown. For one they didn’t talk about a family member sexual abusing you I was born in 1966 and the other was she didn’t stop the emotional abuse such as having loaded weapons pointed at you whether you were protecting her or happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. When I was 10 years old he sat at the kitchen table playing with a pistol and he loaded the gun with blanks but I didn’t know they were blanks. I was standing in the doorway of our small house and he pointed the gun at me and pulled the trigger well I behaved as anyone thinking they were being shot at I dove for cover as he sat at the table laughing like hell. When he died I never cried I was glad that the burden was gone. Being the oldest and your sister being as big a fuckup as him just a junkie versus a drunk all the weight of when he needed to go to the hospital and when his girlfriend would call me saying he needed help we’ll I was sick with my own issues but I was the oldest and the only reason my sister ever showed up was when he refilled his pain medication she is such trash and I have really tried to love her but we are just so different. I didn’t screw up my life and my son’s . And to this day she still thinks she was a good mother but her son wants nothing to do with her. He joined the military after HS just to get away from her. Can you really blame him.

#Anxiety
Always Remember Ladies, if your Spirit Animal is a Cat....you will most definitely always land on your feet withwithin your own Tribe ;) There's Always Something to Look forward to & Be Grateful for. Happy New Year!!!! #She

#Anxiety
Always Remember Ladies, if your Spirit Animal is a Cat....you will most definitely always land on your feet withwithin your own Tribe ;) There's Always Something to Look forward to & Be Grateful for. Happy New Year!!!! #She

I wasn't invited to my best friends son's wedding#She won't come anyway#saidcummunicatingtakestwo #painful #sistercouldntaccept #sheleftmylife

She believed she could, so she did. #nevertheless she persisted
#dailyaffirmation