SuperMom

Hi I'm new here. I am a mom of two handsome boys and a stepmother to a boy and girl. Alittle about me is my youngest biological son is a smart talented and special 6 year old. He has sensory processing/integration disorder, a speech delay, developmental delay and is going through the process of seeing if he has autism as well. He is such a amazing boy who has so much energy love and compassion. He is extremely smart and grasps onto things very quickly. He is able to complete up to 200 piece puzzles without any assistance and loves doing anything educational or learning related. He is loved by anyone who comes into contact with him. He is sensitive to loud noises and can be easily over stimulated. He tends to get frustrated when he is not understood due to him not being able to produce most words or he will create his own words for stuff. For example he calls all my cats by his own names for them " mittens is mackey and max is puppup. Another example is he will call YouTube "book". He kind of made up his own language for stuff. When he has a meltdown anything and everything will set him off whether it be someone walking into same room ad him If someone talks or touches him etc. He has to be left alone so he can calm himself down and once he settles down he will comeback to playing as normal or to be with preferred person he is around. Usually is me. He has a extremely close bond with me and is very attached to me. Don't get me wrong he loves his dad but when it comes to anything he needs or loves cuddles if he gets hurt etc he's all about mom. He's like my little sidekick :)he loves to help out when I bake or cook loves school and loves to do anything hands on. Any advice to help me out that'll b great he is alot to handle especially when in middle of a meltdown wich happens often due to he is super sensitive to anything said or done near him. I love my son he's amazing wouldn't trade this experience for anything. I also have a 11year old with adhd but that's a different story. My 2 stepchildren are great helpers and are very supportive of this all. #Sensory processing disorder #SuperMom # autism #Never give up

I wonder if I’m struggling with #Guilt or feelings of #failure and what the difference is between those labels for me.

I’m supposed to be a #BossBabe during my full-time job, a #SuperMom at school pick-up, during homework, and bedtime, a #TopChef for dinner, a tiger in the bedroom...

But then people say “Oh, don’t forget to take time for yourself!” or “You can’t take care of others if you’re not taking care of yourself.”

Except a few hours of #selfcare isn’t enough when you’re drowning in depression and burning the wick at both ends with anxiety racing around constantly. A few DAYS isn’t enough. What then, huh? I can’t pause parenting. So I keep reaching into my empty cup and spilling out whatever I can. But it’s never enough.. I’m not a Supermom or a Top Chef and I’m too tired to be a tiger in the sack.

So I just feel crappy all the time that I’m not doing or being enough for my loved ones. There’s no joy there because it’s never enough. I know I could and should be doing more.

So— do I feel guilty about not doing enough? Or am I feeling like a failure at being what my loved ones need? Or is it the same thing?

And how do I turn it off?

#MomGuilt #Depression