I've been feeling really scattered and untethered and unable to commit to anything. I think I've been struggling with this fall-out from narcissistic abuse in my past where even the sweetest, most supportive statements or most boring, innocuous activities can have a flip side.

For example, the quote in the photo that is attributed to Buddha: "When you like a flower, you just pluck it. When you love a flower, you water it daily." The flip side for the romantic partner of a narcissist could be a) an absolute deluge of water that makes you feel like you're drowning; or b) pouring liquid poison on you so that you slowly shrivel up and die. But both examples are fulfilling the "sweet" intention of the quote.

This whole "flip side" of things is seriously messing with my ability to have healthy relationships or communication, to apply for jobs, to practice my faith, or to engage in hobbies I used to love. Everything feels like it could flip on me, and my experience showed that sometimes things do, and it seems like there is no longer a firm foundation upon which to build my life.

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