Tryingtogetby

With everything going on I can't figure out how I feel. I'm worried about my family, I feel tired, I feel I have to watch the live press conferences everyday (My state governor and the president). I want to help my community but can't risk bringing home the virus for my family who is high risk, I feel like I need to be sewing masks because I can. Though I'm a student so I should be using time to do homework yet I need to spend time with my family.... I'm having racing thoughts I guess. I feel like I'm just being whiny, I should just do schoolwork, I'm building stuff up that's not actually a big deal. I dont understand how I should feel.... I don't have any motivation to do school. I can't even find the right words to describe how I feel. I know I can do the work, I just need to sit down and focus but I can't bring myself to so I feel stupid and useless. Whiny when I shouldn't be, I have no right. I want extra time to do my homework and email my professor to ask for it and explain but what do I explain that justifies me probably just being lazy. Racing thoughts, just continue.... #Anxiety #MentalHealth #Tryingtogetby

⭕take it slow
⭕rest often #fatique #ChronicIllness #ChronicFatigue #Tryingtogetby #rest #bestwecando

*Little rant
I live at home still and I work a part time job and I'm the youngest in my household by at least 20 years and I'm the ONLY ONE who pays the rent and has a job and is sober (besides my mom) and my mom still gets on me for every little thing. Yes, I have a dirty room half the time but I'm still trying... #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #MentalHealth #Tryingtogetby #Anxiety #Insomnia

Hello everyone, My name is Jewel and I’m 17 years old. I will try to make this as short as possible and straight the point. Though I’ve haven’t been diagnosed with depression by a specialist, I have been put on medication by a doctor and referred to a couple of psychologists and psychiatrists. I had always struggled with severe anxiety since I was a child, I was bullied through elementary to middle school, from my learning disability to my weight. I have always been really thin so it never was really anything major to get upset about when certain people made jokes or harsh comments. Around September of 2017 I was admitted to the hospital for being severely underweight, I was treated very badly. That caused me to have severe trust issues later on with doctors in general, not only did they lie to us on why I was admitted but I, and my mother were threatened by nurses. Since then that has caused me to be very very insecure about my body, I have been very harsh on myself to gain weight that I’d cause myself to have anxiety attacks for THAT. Recently I have been struggling with not only depression but anxiety as well, I can’t seem to find motivation for anything. Just doing regular chores seems so draining, I had to ask my mother to try to get me home instruction until next semester, I have no motivation for basic hygiene needs. I wanted to take time off of school because I was stressing myself too much so my mother thought it would be a good idea as well since I had previously been homeschooled. These past few months though have been emotionally and physically draining, I feel like I’m constantly pushing myself into a deeper hole that I know I want to get out of by I can’t reach my own hand, and I feel terrible because I know it’s draining for my mother to see me this way. I don’t know how long it’s going to be until I can see someone who will not take advantage of my situation, my mother doesn’t have a lot of money to pay for a good specialist. Though I do have healthcare sometimes certain clinics don’t take it SO my question is if anyone of you can recommendations ? I live in San Bernardino area, CA. I hope this reaches to people. Thank you if you’ve gotten this far. #Depression #MentalHealth #Teen #helpneeded #Anxiety