Uncertain

I recently quit my job, I saved enough to be well off for at least 3 months, so I can be there for my parents, they are both senior citizens and my mom battles with early dementia, I knew I was so unhappy with my job, I was so depressed all the time, always in a bad mood, no energy whatsoever (I have hypothyroidism), high stress levels, I felt I was just surviving, existing one day at a time, I have been off for a week, no headaches, more energy, a bit of motivation, I now know what a garbage company I worked for, they totally overworked us and care not an ounce for your well being, I finally said enough….but now, what’s next, how do I organize myself and my thoughts? How do I start caring about myself? How do I start over? Anxiety still hits me regarding the future, all I know is that I haven’t felt this good in such a long time, All I want is to be well, how do I move on? #Uncertain #Hypothyroid #wellness #survivingatoxicworkplace

Having a million thoughts and things to do continuously, like a well oiled cog is great, it helps the days go quickly... But it only takes one thought to stop everything. I know where I am, but is it where I should be ?... #Uncertain

I've had NUMEROUS tests performed by numerous types of specialists, but I've never had a physician tell me I need to come in to go over my results.

I had my 1st appointment with a new Rheumatologist 3 weeks ago; they took A LOT of blood (maybe 15-20 vials).

They called me 2 weeks ago - stating my Vitamin D level was 26, and they were prescribing a 50,000 IU supplement...and I thought that was that.

Then, this past Friday, I received another call from them - stating that the doctor needs me to make an appointment for Monday (tomorrow) to go over my test results.

....I had thought that, last year, my Neurologist had done a full lab workup for rheumatoid factor, autoimmune disorders, etc. (that's what they led me to believe)...But, after reviewing my medical records & test results, I've realized there were a few blood tests that hadn't been performed....blood tests that this new rheumatologist DID perform.

I have a family history of Rheumatoid Arthritis and such. I don't know
what to expect.

I'd really love to not have Rheumatoid Arthritis (or something else) on top of Fibromyalgia. I'm turning 29 in 2 weeks, but I feel 85.

#Worried #anxious #Uncertain #scared #Testresults #Rheumatologist #RheumatoidArthritis

I've had NUMEROUS tests performed by numerous types of specialists, but I've never had a physician tell me I need to come in to go over my results.

I had my 1st appointment with a new Rheumatologist 3 weeks ago; they took A LOT of blood (maybe 15-20 vials).

They called me 2 weeks ago - stating my Vitamin D level was 26, and they were prescribing a 50,000 IU supplement...and I thought that was that.

Then, this past Friday, I received another call from my rheumatologist's office - stating that I needed to make an appointment for Monday (tomorrow) to go over my test results.

....I thought that, last year, my Neurologist had done a full lab workup for rheumatoid factor, autoimmune disorders, etc. (that's what they led me to believe)...But, after reviewing my medical records & test results, I've realized there were a few blood tests that hadn't been performed....blood tests that this new rheumatologist DID perform.

I have a family history of Rheumatoid Arthritis and such. I don't know what to expect.

I'd really love to not have Rheumatoid Arthritis (or something else) on top of Fibromyalgia. I'm turning 29 in 2 weeks, but I feel 85.

#Worried #anxious #Uncertain #scared #Testresults #Rheumatologist #RheumatoidArthritis

#MentalHealth I drive to work every day with reoccurring memories spinning in my head. I might make it through 2 days of work being able to keep my head in check, racing thoughts and circular thinking, but the last 3 days get tougher and tougher. It might be that traffic is too frenetic or that stayed in an extremely difficult situation for far too long... but, I was in the military and moved, on average, every year for my first five years. When I finally settled in one place long enough, people that knew of such things, thought that I might be bipolar.... now, years later, I've seen my share of doctors and counselors, and I'm looking at what I go through on the daily drive, how there are places that I can't go to without getting the shakes before I make it to the door, and I'm trying to find out what I can do... what options, what aid - I'm single, so there's no one paying the bills, but me. A lot of my friends and enemies that still don't believe in such things, still make all stereotypical jerk accusations... too lazy to work, karma, sin damage, etc.
I told a counselor that I recently started seeing about how much I push through and told me that it's something that I shouldn't do. At the end of our session I told her about what my hardest days are like... and she said, "I know" - that's never happened before.
I'm currently trying to look into disability, but it's my first go - I've run from it forever, trying to be positive, faithful, etc.
Where do I go from here? What can I do?