Just found this forum and am so happy to see I’m not crazy and alone. I recently turned 50 and in addition to all the hormonal changes, central hypothyroidism (pituitary malfunction), IBS, anxiety and depression, I have now been dealing with this horrendous and painful condition that honestly blows the others away. After a year of tests to rule out everything else, I’m finally seeing a specialist at Cleveland Clinic next month who has experience with BMS and can hopefully help me find a way to manage the pain. I’ve tried the magic mouthwash, Alpha Lipoic Acid and most recently Nervive at night with little relief but I am now shifting my focus to learn how to live with this (without losing my husband). Thank you all for sharing your stories and hang in there. We can do hard things. ♥️
Feeling down and depresses
I am feeling somewhat down and depressed plus anxious. I joined The Mighty a few days ago and I'm just now feeling more comfortable telling my story. In 2006 i was diagnosed with Leukocytoclastic vasculitis. I had purpura all over both legs and it was very painful. It took a few months but I recovered and was relatively healthy for several years. Then as soon as I hit 40 it was like my health fell off a cliff. I was extremely tired all the time, depressed, and had night sweats. My doctor repeatedly checked my hormone and thyroid levels but they kept coming back "normal". Then I went to an ENT to get my ears cleaned. During the exam he felt my throat and said my thyroid was enlarged. I had an ultrasound and my thyroid levels checked, again. Finally I was out of range and I started synthroid. I noticed over the next few months my symptoms got worse and my neck was getting bigger. I had another ultrasound and talked my doctor into increasing my dose. The ultrasound showed I had nodules on my thyroid so he sent me to a pathologist who I well known around me for only testing the thyroid. I had a fine needle biopsy which came back benign. However, he said he could tell by looking at my thyroid I had hashimotos and sent a note to my doctor to test my TPO. It came back way, way out of range at over 800. My doctor said I had hashimotos in the past. By this point though I had been doing my own research and new that wasn't correct. Plus I went to an endocrinologist who was concerned I not only had hashimotos but graves disease too given how large my thyroid was. The graves test came back inconclusive. Meanwhile, I was on a hormone rollercoaster plus I developed shingles. I wound up in the hospital a few times and was taken seriously once till shift change where the new doctor brushed me off and sent me home. My primary care doctor was not happy the hospital brushed me off because I had chest pain. I saw a cardiologist a few times, was taken off synthroid then back on because my thyroid levels were all over the place, then after about 6 months everything calmed down and I was stable. I ended up changing primary care doctors since I couldn't get the old doctor to believe I had hashimotos plus he wouldn't check my iron levels. The new doctor checked my iron at my first appointment and found my ferritin level was very low but never tried to figure out why. Fast forward a couple of years and I start having severe pelvic pain. After seeing 6 doctors in the span of 2 months I finally get diagnosed with adenomyosis and fibroids. Nothing was helping with the pain and I had a total hysterectomy only keeping my ovaries. I woke up from surgery and the pain I had been in daily for several months was gone. Then about 7 months later the thyroid pathologist told me my thyroid was getting so enlarged I should see a surgeon about getting it removed. The same week I severely sprained my ankle and lost my insurance. Two months later with new insurance and still dealing with the sprained ankle I went to a pain management specialist and he sent me the physical therapy. By this point it was December so the holidays interfered with starting therapy and my Achilles tendon quit working and I was on crutches. Meanwhile, I couldn't work because I worked in catering and had a heck of a time getting on disability. I ended up having to quit my 2nd job because I just couldn't walk and be on my feet as long as that job required. Over the next 6 months I faithfully went to therapy and doctor appointments. I wound up in a walking cast at one point, sprained my ankle again, and had the big toe on the same foot sprained after someone walked right into me and stepped very hard on my foot. This caused me to go on workers compensation because it happened at work. Meanwhile at the same time my landlord decided he didn't want to renew my lease so I had to fight him in court and look for a new apartment. Oh and my insurance decided I had enough physical therapy so they cut me off. This brings us to January 2020. My whole family got sick in January with what we now know was covid, we didn't then. While I was still recovering we moved. I was able to return the physical therapy for a brief period till lockdown in March. I had a few virtual appointments then I was discharged about a month later. In September I went to a new endocrinologist and she looked at my records, ordered a new ultrasound. She confirmed my thyroid was way to large to even figure out what was thyroid tissue and what was nodules. She sent me to a surgeon who immediately scheduled me for surgery for a total thyroidectomy. I recovered from that, my anxiety spiraled way out of control and my husband took me to the emergency room one day. That got me into the counseling and with a psychiatrist right away and I'm on medication. With my anxiety getting under control of course something else had to start. In October I started having what I think are vasculitis flares. I tell my doctor who prescribed gabapentin and also started me on a statin due to high cholesterol because genetics. I am allergic to dairy, have gluten intolerance and overall already eat fairly healthy. So I started both new medications and immediately break out in hives over Thanksgiving. I stop both new medications and the hives don't go away. So after 2 rounds of prednisone they finally go away. The doctor wanted to wait a few months before trying anything new again. Meanwhile, the pain my legs gets worse but mostly tolerable. Then one day in February I'm doing normal housework and halfway through the day I am in so much pain I can't walk. I'm laid up in bed for a week. I make an appointment with a rheumatologist who I saw last week. He was really thorough, nice, and clearly explained his thoughts. He doesn't think it's the vasculitis flaring up and runs A LOT of tests, 12 vials of blood and a cup of urine. He briefly mentioned fibromyalgia. When I Google fibromyalgia I do check a lot of boxes for it. He said expected all the test results to come back negative but they didn't. I did what I know you're not suppose to do but I Googled the test results that came back out of range and the only things I can speculate is maybe I do have fibromyalgia, the vasculitis is flaring, and I may have a mild case of a hereditary blood disorder that is in my family, my dad had it and several cousins have it. It's spherocytosis. The only reason I speculate on the fibromyalgia is the soles on my feet really hurt and that does not go with vasculitis. I'm currently learning that I can't push myself or I over do it and wind up in a lot of pain. My feet constantly throb. I am starting to pace myself. I see the rheumatologist the first week of May to go over the test results. So that's my story, sorry it's long.
Well, I reach out and ... nothing. I just wanted to know why I couldn't upload a photo!The person that responded didn't understand, and literally asked how they could help? Could have just told me if there's a file size limit.... no damn menus to explain anything! But this app isn't for everyone. It's definitely NOT for folks looking for help or understanding. I think they should scrap this and start over- before someone else decides to fill the gap.
FYI- I would have been happy to just read posts and try to be supportive to.others but this already just social media, not support media. I came across a post describing a mental illness that was not accurate. In fact, I was concerned for the fear and stress it might create for some. You can't expect this app to be like any other, it needs to be monitored. It could literally cause distress - it has for me- and no one is coming here for that!
I am giving this post a day or two then I will be deleting all my posts and this app.
Good luck folks.
Sooooo….. recently I’ve been having really odd sleep patterns (alseep 2 hours early, up awake 4-6 hours earlier than I used to) and daily panic attacks for what I feel is practically no reason. After my recent bloodwork I may know, in part, why. I have autoimmune hypothyroidism that resulted in a total thyroidectomy in 2016, so my levels are based mostly on my weight, which I’ve been losing steadily. My TSH(thyroid stimulating hormone) was 0.0379! Normal minimum is 0.5, so at that level I was lucky panic attacks and slightly elevated blood pressure was all I had! Holy crow, was I scared! At least I can start telling myself it’ll get better- I hope! Ugh and phew! #PanicAttack #AutoimmuneThyroidDisease #Hypothyroid #hyperthyroid
When it all hits at once...
I've been doing so well, even through Christmas. Christmas eve I basically totalled my truck when I was struck by a buck following church services. That didn't send me into the mess I'm in today. Today is my parents anniversary (dad died in 2003), my step-dads birthday (died in 2019), I have a migraine (started botox therapy 11 weeks ago), and my menstrual cycle. I'm in the process of getting a divorce as well, my husband won't move out, the temporary hearing is in a week and tonight, I opened Facebook to see his uncle passed. I immediately told him only to find out that he has known all day but had no intention of telling me. Why does it hurt so much? I guess after 20 years I'd be used to it. #Grief #PTSD #GAD #Depression #Migraine #Diabetes #Hypothyroid
I recently quit my job, I saved enough to be well off for at least 3 months, so I can be there for my parents, they are both senior citizens and my mom battles with early dementia, I knew I was so unhappy with my job, I was so depressed all the time, always in a bad mood, no energy whatsoever (I have hypothyroidism), high stress levels, I felt I was just surviving, existing one day at a time, I have been off for a week, no headaches, more energy, a bit of motivation, I now know what a garbage company I worked for, they totally overworked us and care not an ounce for your well being, I finally said enough….but now, what’s next, how do I organize myself and my thoughts? How do I start caring about myself? How do I start over? Anxiety still hits me regarding the future, all I know is that I haven’t felt this good in such a long time, All I want is to be well, how do I move on? #Uncertain #Hypothyroid #wellness #survivingatoxicworkplace