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Depression Continues and It Never Ends

I had some success beating back depression and having better sleep (see previous post). But just as I succeed in taking steps to recovery, I slid back today. I took a long nap for no reason other than, “why not?” I had no reason to nap for so long or at all. Just none.

Am I wishing I was dead? Are all these oversleeps and long naps a form of suicidality? Just wishing I could close my eyes and the world would go away?

I want this to stop. I want to live my life! I have to live my life. What can I do to stop sleeping and shutting the world out?!
#BipolarDisorder #Bipolar1Disorder #BipolarDepression #Sleep #oversleeping #suicidality #Willtolive #despair #DepressionNaps #MajorDepression

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Suicide 4y

Feeling Sad...i think

I might get to be a Grammie but I am torn if that is something that will keep me alive. #Suicide #Depression #Willtolive

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Depression 5y

Not suicidal but don’t want to live?

I’m not suicidal not even slightly but there are so many days where I just don’t want to live or exist anymore. I don’t want to actively kill myself. I just kind of give up and want to die naturally in my sleep those days. I don’t even particularly want to die on those days just not exist. I don’t feel like I can talk about this to anyone because people then assume I am suicidal even if I say I’m not.
#Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #Willtolive

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Depression Continues and It Never Ends

Feeling Sad...i think

Not suicidal but don’t want to live?

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