Willtolive

Why is it when my so call other half as he calls it wakes up I just freeze stop doing anything want to cry and lose any will and motivation to live.

When I’m not with him I feel happier and want to get things done. This morning woke up had some of yesterday’s dinner thought I’m going to clean do the usual self care stuff. Now he’s up I want to do nothing at all apart from sit here quietly and be down.

I’ve had opportunities to be happier but I’ve blown it because I was scared I’d be unhappy and don’t want to be on my own but then don’t want to do anything apart from sit here quietly and die.

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I might get to be a Grammie but I am torn if that is something that will keep me alive. #Suicide #Depression #Willtolive

I’m not suicidal not even slightly but there are so many days where I just don’t want to live or exist anymore. I don’t want to actively kill myself. I just kind of give up and want to die naturally in my sleep those days. I don’t even particularly want to die on those days just not exist. I don’t feel like I can talk about this to anyone because people then assume I am suicidal even if I say I’m not.
#Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #Willtolive