Agenda

#party ….nope
#guest….nope
#dressup….nope
#orders….nope
#drive….nope
#directions….nope
#late #home….nope
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#rest….YUP
#relax….YUP
#fun at #home…YUP
#stayed inside….YUP
#Loved the day…YUP
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#reality….Fabulous #mentally #healthy #Birthday without any
#Anxiety #PTSD #cptsd #Depression #financialpain #worries #guilt #stress

I am learning. Yesterday, I was completely off from all activities and rested solely as a means of recovery. So I started my early morning panic as I hear the city’s commuters filling the streets. I decided to write down—and out—my racing thoughts. Suddenly, I stopped writing and trying to analyze my emotions as I told myself, “Hey, I don’t have time to do this, I am missing out on my agenda. I have some resting to do.”

And for the first time during this eight month medical leave, I realized, the goal of the leave is to stop thinking, analyzing, lamenting, figuring out a workout regime, and stop playing app games that require problem solving according to times I once set. I have one goal on my agenda: rest, rest, rest my brain.

So now I sit waiting for a bus after taking a wonderful walk outdoors. I completed errands that felt more like fun adventures as time was NOT the goal of this outing. And I watched my bus pass the store as I talked to the cashier, to talk, and not to hurry them up so I can run and flag down the bus to return home to accomplish……what….nothing. I am at rest even when commuting through an active city’s streets. And THAT is #TheMighty reward I have gained since being introduced to #Selfcare on this site.

#ThankYou !