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Good news: I am learning. Yes!
Yesterday, I was completely off from all activities and rested solely as a means of recovery. So I started my typical early morning panic as I hear the city’s commuters filling the streets. I need to get active! Right.😵💫!
So, I decided to write down—and out—my racing thoughts. Suddenly, I stopped writing and trying to analyze my emotions as I told myself, “Hey, I don’t have time to do this, I am missing out on my agenda. I have some resting to do.” 👏👏👏!
And for the first time during this eight month medical leave, I realized, the goal of the leave is to stop thinking, analyzing, lamenting, figuring out a workout regime, and stop playing app games that require problem solving according to times I once set. I am learning that I have one goal on my agenda: rest, rest, rest my brain.
So now I sit waiting for a bus, today, after taking a wonderful walk outdoors. I completed errands that felt more like fun adventures as time was NOT the goal of this outing. And I even watched my bus pass the store I was in, as I talked to the cashier, simply to talk, and not to hurry them up so I can run and flag down the bus to return home to accomplish……what….nothing.
This means, I am at rest even when commuting through an active city’s streets. And THAT is #themighty reward I have gained since being introduced to #selfcare on this site.
#Depression I woke up today and my first thought was of Pete, I couldn't stop the tears. I feel responsible for his death and I will never get over it. Smoke inhalation it must have been horrible for him to die that way and I can't bare thinking about it. He would have been 9 years old in a few weeks. If he hadn't gone to bed early with me. #My tiny little dog# Pete#My hea
Missing #My sons
I feel like my skin is crawling, I feel like my insides are jumping. I have been sick for a couple weeks. I just with I felt like I could do the stuff that I have done for years. I'm so scared, #My fears are overwhelming me right now. What can I do I don't feel like I can breathe. Help me find a way .
Todays post is called my biggest dream because ever since I was told at the age of seven that I had a disability called Cerebral Palsy my biggest dream has always been to learn to walk on my own. I know in my heart of hearts that it may not happen for me but I still till this day hold on to hope that it will even if it doesn't that's ok with me because I've come to the realization that I'm still me regardless if I'm able to walk or not.I have many other abilities that I'm capable of and I'm just going to stay focused on those for right now . final thought everyone has different abilities that they're good at and everyone has the ability to shine when given the chance.